For better or worse...

Goodness gracious me!! It’s just been a crazy month for my whole team…we took over New Zealand products and still doing Australian and Asian products as well…I have 6 products running coherently, and it’s not funny!! Have not been out to do the usual shit…arghhhhh…life is always unfair eh? Tell me about it…

Things with mom has not really been settled…I guess am just too busy right now to have tht also in my mind…besides I need some space and am sure she needs hers…something I have not dealt with in a long time…all this shit for tht 1 month…hmmmm…totally not worth it I must say!!!

Although I had fun in so many other ways with all my cousins whom I have not met in ages…but when it came to my own family…I was falling apart…aumi was the only one who came running to my aid…when I least expected!!! That made it all more loving and worth while…she’s amazing Aumi…always there to put up with my crap…and always there for more lovin!!!!!!!!!!

Anyways I just hope all will end well and I told my mom I will come home when I am a-o-k! I just need some sorting out…hahahhaha!!

P/S: can’t wait to clear NEML 167, ANST 89, ACRU 245, ZMHR 30, NCY 113, NCP 270…bless me!

First Impressions!!

So…Sharm and I finally met up after all my family gatherings….we ended up in Passions and later went to Cynaa…we had a blast!!

Sharm wanted me to meet Vikram (her current bf now!), Michael and Naomi and they seemed really nice…although we were almost “there” tht night….we weren’t dancing much though…something Sharm and I used to do quite a bit all the time…and we had a few numbers and tht’s it….

I guess when ur trying so hard to make a good first impression, one tends to forget to have fun!! But I guess the funny thing is by the end of tht nite…somehow things naturally revealed itself!! Am I shocked? Well I was at first…but these things are only predictable when one is toxicated…ahahahahahaha! I guess u truly understand wht I mean….

But anyhoooss….we had a good time and yes we must do this again….all the best Sharm with Vikram…u guys look good together…winks winks!

P/S: Teh tarik anyone?…

Alina's reunion party!

boy...did we have fun...it's just been too long...6 months...!

Nadia, Alina and I decided to do the traditional dinner @ Bumbu Bali...and drinks after @ Waikiki Bar...we just had the best time....almost drunk...hahahhaahh! i have to say....alina and nadia were just soooo hot tht we got so many drinks at our table with lil notes....ahahhahahha!!! (the guys just could not hold it in...winks) and yes...we drank, drank and drank summore....cheers u guys!

i just wish there are more times like this....we walked down memory lane...laughed till our guts came out...it could not have been better...heehehhhe...too bad dzul could not join us! he was too busy with his gf's bday party.....noti!

we bitched to glory, updating alina with the hottest office gossips and she was just so thrilled...nothing has chaged much around the office since she left..she said...but lots has changed among our personal lives...it was just briliant!

we got dressed up...and yes we had the wildest time....we should do this more often.....U BET!

P/S: love u gals!!

CNY holidays...

Funny how u’d think tht the 1-week holiday would give u the rest u need…I beg to differ…!

My plans to Penang were cancelled coz of my uncles prayers and I had to stick around in KL to do most of the running around! My cousins from Aussie were down and I kinda took them out for shopping (although it was almost empty during CNY)…they just keep converting for everything! It’s darn cheap…dirt-cheap…hmmmm….well I would prolly say too if I was earning in Aussie dollars….ahhahhahahhaha!!!!

Spent a lot of $$$…thts for sure and am looking forward to pay day already…hmmm…why r u not surprised eh! Anyways…it was good to do something else for a change…u know the going to bed late…the waking up late…the no need lunch thingy…can do the dishes and laundry later….it was great la…ehhehehehehe!

So am looking forward to another long holiday to absolutely do nothing and just be a bum!

P/S: Yay…Alina’s back!

AMTE 5 not over?

Proof reading???…just when I tot I am done and over with AMTE 5!!!! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

I can finally see it looking like a book…everything seems super to me…Hahhahaha! But Kamal has to confirm this definitely!

So…what have I planned for my holiday? Well was thinking of going to penang…and then tht got cancelled last minute…sob sob…but I guess I shall just spend some quality time with me cousins from aussie…. they’ve been here for a week now and I haven’t sat down and had a proper conversation with either of them..!

Have to go get my car washed…it’s looking like a dirty fish tank now…(having finding nemo scene in mind!!)...till more..

P/S: Happy Burp day Jay!!

AMTE finally cleared!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahha…and I finally cleared AMTE….phew…this was a tough one and yes….my team was really motivating and supportive….could not have done this all alone….winks mischievously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So…it’s been 23 days since I quit smoking…and never felt better…the last week has been really stressful…with the book project and the passing away of my grand uncle…things have taken a different turn in my life…

I know whts right for me…London thatha was great…he came down for the funeral..although we did not spend much time together….i know the lil moments were a delight….love u thatha!!

So cheers to kamal and me for clearing the book on time…lets see if the $$$ comes as promised…ahhahhahahhaha!!!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday mom…

My sis and I took mom and family to TGIF for her birthday…something she never had…and we tot this might be something special...haahhaha….and we all loved it…though it was the usual dig in the pocket….all worth it….the reaction on moms face was priceless….!!

Dad was rattling on and on about how expensive the dishes were…and how we could put the money to good use…dad finally chipped in as well…he’s always like tht…..love u pa….

Grandma had her vegetarian pasta and all…dad had his vegetarian tortilla’s…mom had salmon…Thayaa had New Orleans Jambalaya….I had the JD chicken and yes…aumi had her nachos….the strawberry margarita was excellent…what can I say about the mud pies…yummminesssssssssssssssssssssssss and the boys and gals of TGIF gave mom a birthday song…ahhahhahahhaha!!!!

So here’s to more mom…good times…we love u!!

Ponggal Valtukal….

So…happy Ponggal everyone…nice day…good feeling…off to mom’s for some small prayers and to the temple after tht….moms birthday tomm and I am just so excited…the war over between us? Well pretty much I guess…but the wounds remain…and I think it will take a while before it will really heal…

Anyways...its been 2 weeks now…“nicotine free”….wohoooo!! I had faith tht I could do this…although the eating habits is a bit of a concern…I seem to feel hungry all the time now..and me cousins are all worrying me about people who quit get bigger!!! Hmmm…ponders!

Anyhoo….its been a good two weeks now…am in my last week of my book project and am off to a good holiday…been working on this project for like 3 months already…arghhhh….i eat, sleep, think AMTE!! Gosh….

So…hope u all are having a great start with 2006! I know I am…..loves u

It’s been a week!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh my goodness….I cannot believe this…it’s been a week since I quit smoking and never felt better….although my war with my mom is still on…hmmmm!!!!

All my friends have been really supportive with my decision…and are still in awe with the cold turkey bit…heheehhee…something I never thought I could do….not as easy as it is now….

Well we got our new employment contracts yesterday…i got a small increment…nothing much really, but better than nothing…some of my good friends wasn’t as lucky…some even thinking of greener pastures…sigh!!

If these good friends leave…I will lose really good friends…friends who have been there through thick and thin…(u guys know who u all are!!!)…I am hoping tht all of them will soon be blessed with something greater and happier…love u all!

P/S: Aumi i know u can do this too...u have my support too!!!!

Howdy 2006!!!!!

So...the new year has already begun...and guess wht....my new year's resolution is to quit smoking....!!!!!!!!!

and here i am...going to my fourth day...and never felt better! mom kinda found out, and it was only easier to quit!!! one only has to find a good reason and it's easy....so cold turkey it is!

everyone i know is kinda shocked....well i am tyring to make a point to myself tht i can do this!...it's important tht i keep this promise...it means the world to me....so here it is 2006....come get me!!!!!!!!!!!!

P/S: “A new year is unfolding – like a blossom with petals curled tightly concealing the beauty within.”

Sayonara 2005!!!!!!

It’s been absolutely an interesting year for me…started off with a little hiccup…being with LIM KOK WING and all….but later…I joined WKESP and it’s been great ever since….my good friends, family and colleagues have been VERY SUPPORTIVE…and just made 2005 a memorable one…! I have made really good and special friends…u guys know who u all are and it’s been brilliant!

I have started indulging myself in spiritual concerns and it has just brought a whole new meaning to my life! Never felt better…although mom gets topsy turvy at times…but hey…I think it’s more a shocking news to her than anything else…first the temple going, then being vegetarian on certain days…and jasmine flowers and my head????? It’s all too much sometimes…I just love it….thank you GANESHA….I feel like a better person already!!!

So a toast to 2005…thank you!! Welcome 2006…hoping u will be better and will bring happier times…

P/S: I love u

Le Meridien Christmas Party!

Our company Christmas dinner party was held at the Le Meridien Hotel in Kuala Lumpur! Loads of fun, food, drinks and goodies…we had a short time to organize this party and I must say…the Happy Hours Club pulled it through…thank you guys…I would not have been able to do it without your help…u guys know who u r…!!!!!!

We had an 8 course Chinese dinner…food was good, loads of drinks (beer, wine, fruit juices…winks!!) and we had a wonderful time…getting there was half the fun…ahhahhahahhaha!!! All of us got stuck in mid traffic jam , heading towards KL Central was no easy walk in the park…

But we got there in one piece and the night was all ours…thanks Peter for letting us have this!!

P/S: Nadia and Dzul…u guys the best!

Merry Christmas!

Christmas was just wonderful…although it was a spiritual one for me…! I went to Kulim (Dhyana Ashram) for prayers…went to see my parents Swamiji and he was nice as ever! So down to earth, so knowledgeable…it was just brilliant!

I felt so rejuvenated tht the feeling was just indescribable…loads of mantras and slokas…it was really inspiring!! Ganesha, Amman and Murugan looked their best and it was definitely a day to remember…

Did loads of driving from Kulim to penang and back and forth but it was all worth it! I just felt different, more peace with myself! Like I said, am lost for words!!

I just hope tht my path to spirituality will grow from here…it was definitely a memorable day for me…my parents just loved every bit of it!…thank you Swamiji for making it special for me…

P/S: Merry X’mas everyone!!!

Swamiji's influence...

So am going to Kulim this weekend for some good prayers! Christmas this year is definitely gonna be spiritual for me…as I have started my temple –going, I am hoping that things will take a positive turn next year! Like I said, most of us always think of ‘HIM’ when we need something or when our loved ones are in danger…will this ever change?

My mom kind of saw her Swamiji and was paranoid about me not getting into the ‘wedding bliss’ mood! And so this is one of the major reasons I am going to see swamiji this weekend as well…he is one super guru, everything he says makes sense, and he is really lovable! My parents an in awe of him and they enjoy his spiritual classes, and he talks about life…as simple as it gets!!

Mom and Dad were always excited when Swamiji used to come over to have lunch! She cooked with all her heart and Swamiji always had the nicest of things to say…mom always took it as a blessing, something special she could do for her Swamiji…he is simply nice…

So am going to start taking this journey and hopefully be there someday…hope to see u there too….

P/S: Holy Matrimony???

Temple-going buddy!

I’ve always wanted to go to temple frequently…u know…to get spiritual peace!! Somehow I never forced myself to find the time to seek HIM…always called upon HIM when I needed something or when someone I loved was in trouble…but recently tht all has changed…I always wanted to just go there, and somehow at the back of my mind I knew I would feel peaceful…don’t know how to describe it…but it’s just a wonderful feeling…

Devan finally came back…a brother full of reverence…so much love, so much giving! Well he was now very much into being spiritual and he promised to be my temple-going buddy…and it has been great since….went to the Perumal temple last week and he took me to the Shiva and Amman temple in Bukit Gasing yesterday! PRICELESS I TELL YA….

I never felt better about myself and my surroundings….my mom always told me to have time to go to temples…not about ritual or traditions…but to find peace within oneself…it’s just different…HE is everywhere…but somehow the vibrations from temples is divine! I just fell in love with tht feeling…I needed an excuse to crack the ignorance!

So here I am…a different person, different feeling, different intentions! I want to do this more than ever and I am glad I found to do it now! (u might think its too late? But it’s never too late…never ever!) and I am sure many can vouch for this…I don’t know how I could be so unmindful….hmmm…I know I am going to love this journey true and true!!

P/S: It’s been beautiful, it’s been pleasing, it’s been overwhelming….

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Weekender!

Good weekend i must say...spent a lot of quality time with friends...the world is a better place with them around!! (u guys know who u r....winks!)

had grandma's birthday thingy and she was just all surpirsed and happy...prolly for tht 2 seconds...and then she went on "i m not in the mood" mode...i pity my mom!...tolerating all this for the longest time...grandma is one hard one to crack...nothing my mom does can ever please her...i would say tht grandma is having a wonderful life...she gets everything...eventhough she doesn't need it...sigh!!

we all do many things to please the ones we love...sometimes..its never enough...how? why? when? where? what? hmmmm....

p/s: mom...i guess she will realise it once it's all gone!!

New oppurtunity?

well...my team leader gave me some news...good or bad? we'll see in a bit...

so she said there was this opening for an editorial-production liaison...and the job description in brief would be...that this person is the daily business representative who liaises with Cyberjaya - covering reschedules, quality issues, ensuring the correct number of reports goes each year etc.

i was apparently recommended and i was touched at first...coz, i might be based in sydney....but u know wht's the catch? it is only an 18 month contract as they are not sure if it will still be needed once wthey have bedded down all the processes etc...

my team leader said tht i could come back to my present job if they no longer need this liaison person! but the best bit is tht after lata went to see Linda, Linda says tht i might not get to come back to my present job...a job which i have a permanent contract with..! a fool to take it on and not know wht the future lies? hell no....

Lata says tht if i got the interview, i would need to state my end of the bargain,and tht i would be safe to come back if anything should happen.....funny how management works!...it's probably happeneing everywhere? god knows...u think the grass is always greener on the other side...but hey!

i got pist off with some of the implications on claiming OTs!...we all work our ass's off to get a job well done...and they seem to pick on the smaller things...irritates the hell out of me...so i have decided to write a nice email to the management...i think they should know how this is affecting all of us here...

no bonus's, no proper salary increment....hmmmm....(though my mom repeatedly asked me to shut it!)...we'll see where this goes...i will be polite...no worries!!!

p/s: we miss u appachi

Sorry!

What should I say…aumi and I had this huge argument on Saturday….did not mean for it to happen but I guess…a lil good came out of it…aumi I want to u to know tht I love u with all my heart and the last thing I want is something bad to happen between us…!

Whteva tht happened…I believe always happen for a reason…and by this I hope we affiliated to each other in a more ameliorated level…healthier perhaps! I sure hope so! Although we did not talk about it much after the incident, I guess we both understand the weight of the issue…and will make an effort to reconcile…confident tht u will too!

Sunday was much better…definitely…I guess we have surpassed the matter in hand and hope tht we will come to better conclusion of our relationship together…be it for better or worse!

I love u….always have…always will!! Here’s something...

i shouldn't have yelled

i shouldn't have blamed u

i should have known that some words u said was true

u were always there always sweet and always nice

now i feel so bad for making u pay this price

i don't now if that will ever be the same

i aready feel as if i've lost you

my heart's in so much pain

but befor u leave

there's something u should think thru

just wanted to say i'm sorry

and also that i love u

Friends a feather...flock together!!

"Blessed are they who have the gift of making friends for it is one of God's best gifts"

have u ever wondered why some have been there more than others? well i have been blessed myself...i have had many good friends in my journey...and i thank god everyday for making me special and to have these special people around me...it's just been all worth it!

this workplace has given me many good friends...they r just not collegues...they are friends in the good times and in the worst of times....i have pretty much gone through the roller coaster ride particularly with this group of friends....

chillies has always been a good place...so here is to more good times...!!