Everything I need comes to me at the perfect time!

So…it’s been a while again! Classes have really taken a whirl turn on me and the things I used to always do and love doing; I can’t seem to do them now! With the new working hours and days, I have put a lot of the good things I usually used to do on hold….but guess what???

New good moments and experiences have turned up! I am now in touch with a few very good people currently in my life now like my family, friends, ‘friend’ colleagues, ex-colleagues and some teachers… I am blessed nevertheless! I think ‘the Higher Power’ has its way to tell me that I have to now prioritize the things I love and like doing with the people that matter to me ‘now’.

Like the picture says, I have come to realize that karma works at its best and in its own mysterious way, as and when it should! I love the surprises it has brought, brings and will bring in the future…Come to me, I am ready for you…through thick and thin, through good and bad, through richness and poorness, through day and night, through love and hate, through it all!

And for this ‘new someone’ who has come into my life…Welcome to Sivananthi’s World!

It's been just too long...welcome back Sivananthi Jai Hind Das!

Why did it take me so long to write again? It has just been an adventurous journey thus far! I know and believe that ‘life’ has taught me so much and something’s are best left unsaid. But today I decided to start penning down my  thoughts as I go along this journey of mine…as the ‘quote’ says above, I AM truly enduring the wonderful experiences that life has been and will be treating me!

What has happened? Well, let me tell you that my thoughts and understanding about life has changed over the years (especially since I last wrote something proper here!). I am trying to comprehend the world in all its glory and bountifulness, that everyone and everything that has happened or is happening or will happen to me, always happens in the greatest of plan…by the ‘supreme higher intelligence’! My experiences have given me the opportunity to comprehend and appreciate the smaller things in life and how important it is to be grateful for everything that’s around me (everything and everyone in this UNIVERSE!).

When did this transformation take place? From the time our lives took a 180° turn with my immediate family and me recently! Now I know my true relatives, friends, foe and acquaintances…They all have exposed to me what abundance and limitations one can exude to others and to themselves through good and bad times! Expecting, appreciating, gratitude, love, caring, joy, peace, sharing and complementing are just some of the feelings that I have a new meaning for…I know that the ‘right one’ will be there for me in time, to share this wonderful journey with me in ‘my now’! Cheers, I say, for this wonderful, beautiful journey ahead…

Sources of Inspiration ----------------------------- In- spirit

My lovely journey...here, now and more...

books
1) The Secret by Rhonda Byrne
2) Conversations with God by Neale Donald Walsch (Book 1)
3) You Can Heal Your Life by Louisse L. Hay
4) The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle
5) A Woman's Worth by Marianne Williamson
6) Many Lives, Many Masters by Brian L. Weiss
7) Out on a Limb by Shirley Maclaine
8) 10 Secrets for Success and Inner Peace
9) Like Water for Chocolate by Laura Esquiel

movie/dvd
1) What the Bleep?
2) The Secret & Oprah Winfrey Talkshow
3) Introducing Abraham
4) The Law of Attraction
5) Peaceful Warrior
6) Conversations with God

The Secret...

I was introduced to the Secret…

And life has been ever so beautiful since…I cannot explain the feeling…but it has given me so much…so much love and joy…a wonderful journey…this is just the beginning…

When the student is ready the teacher will appear….oh I am rediscovering so much…everyday!

Thank You God for bringing me happiness and love in my life… I am open and receptive to all good and abundance in the universe.

THANK YOU.

There goes the mane!!!

So I finally got to cut my hair…..phewww!!!!! wht a relief la…it just feels so damn good…easy maintenance and well…I cud save the few extra bucks…haahhahah

Mom finally caved in (although i have yet to tell her..)..i feel like she just had to…something we’ve been struggling with all these years…had the heart to heart talk again about marriage…and hmmmm….u’d know how it turned out!!

I just wish good things happen and to all the good ones…happy still?? Question I need to ask myself every now and then…

Cheers to more better times…

P/S: I so need it!!

My first out of this Country experience..to be!!!

So guess wht….m finally getting on the plane to PHUKET!!!!!!!!!! And thanks to my sis aumi…she wanted me to fly before my 30th birthday…..is she awesome or wht…..!!!

And she booked it today….wohooooooooooooooo over AIRASIA and I am just so flabbergasted and thrilled…I was jumping off my seat when she told me today…ahahhha…and me speechless….

M finally going on the plane…alllallalalalalallallalalllala….Aug 1st – Aug 8th 2007..

P/S: Now go get the freakin passport pleaseeeeeee….

WNE 2650...:(

My baby…

8th of Jan 2007… a week into the New Year and I meet with an accident….good start?? U tell me….

Slippery roads...it was pouring buffalos…bloody old Chinese man….arghhhhhhhhhhhh…awful!

Thank you for taking all the hurting baby...u protected me…miss u so much!!! DANG!

Hello 2007!!

Much has happened…I had a horrible argument with my family…and am just so angry with a lot of things…so much so it drove me up the wall…

U know the saying u always hurt the ones u love most….oh dear how true is tht????? I might have said some things…not very nice things…but I guess…everyone almost…say the wrong things when they r really angry….

Am trying to make amends now…and not sure if they (u know who u r..!!) will forgive me…2006 has not been a cup of tea for me…and am sure those who are close to me will know this for a fact!

So m looking forward to the New Year…and hope as things happen for a reason…happen for the better…here’s something…!!!

"There's a choice you have to make in everything you do. You must always keep in mind that the choice you make in the end makes you."

P/S: Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year everyone!!!

My Tarrot Card says...

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

What Tarot Card are You?

Take the Test to Find Out.

busy busy bee...

Time is something i can't get hold of now...and everytime i tell myself to write something...i forget..or am just bogged down with loads of work....calemdar YEAR 2007 is not funny!!

i cannot imagine the students workload here...i think i was pretty blessed with my course of study in uni....hmmm...am fighting suttly for the kids...hoping they make disticnt changes for the better....

will write soon i promise....am domesticated now...sigh! i wanna feel this way now--->

mY very own laptop finally!!!!!!!!!!

AND SO....

i finally got myself a laptop...after searching for a good one..high and low...heehhhheh! am so excited...my very own OMG!

things have been pretty great..i finally got a new job and things at home and family are fab! i am sooo happy...i cant describe it in words...it's like...hmmmm...lovely!

been a while since i felt like this....more to come i hope....cheers!!

Sunway ...here i come!

So….it was brought to my attention that….hahhahahaahahaa…am free…am free…finally am free….lllalla..lallaa..lala.llalla.llall..dumm deee dumm..dumm dee..!

I have been sick as a puppy for the longest time in years…and nothing can make me feel better than knowing am leaving this another shithole..yipppieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I cannot describe the crazy feeling inside…but I had to tell them…and I did….I AM NOT HAPPY AND I WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE I WILL BE HAPPIER!!!!!…They were shocked…didn’t think I’d say it huh…in your face man…in your bloody face!

To know that there are people like this in the world??? Gawdddd so many cruel people…so many people who have so called ‘people skills’…hahaaha all I can do is laugh now…am gonna groom myself to be better and not to ever hopefully meet these kind of people…and believe me….if I do…I’ll definitely have something to say...Sunway here I come!

duh!!!!

I know I have not written for a long time…I had loads in my mind…and just could not find a reason to write anything specific…I can’t believe this…. why is this happening to me? Just when I thought the transition was amazing…so I got into this company thinking that its gonna be great…well…I thought wrong…hmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They revamped my offer letter (got it only after 1 month in the company) and they just changed everything…and guess what…with a pay cut even…sigh!!!! I should have listened to my dad…he said that’s the first thing u should have collected when the agreement was set…and then leave the previous company…

But did I do that????? No….”he’ said…my word is truth, lets shake on it!!!! And I believed him…I did…I gave him the benefit of the doubt…and I trusted his every word…only to find out, everything went through a roller coaster ride…somehow or rather…am pretty unlucky with issues as such….

Do I go along with my new jd??? (which changed like 4 times since I got in) or do I look for greener pastures? I don’t know…am so blur and stressed out…my period has yet to stop from 21/2 weeks….duh!!!!!!!!!!

See u later????

And the time has come…my leaving from WKESP…arghhhhh it was a roller coaster…emotional ride….part of me was so excited…and yet the other really sad for leaving the friends I found….and definitely for keeps!!!!!!!!!!!

They gave me the best birthday and farewell…felt like a million bucks…..(ahem…really!!!)..thanks to all their effort…I just love them for this….so here’s to more good times…am gonna miss u guys….

I hate goodbyes….am crying already!!!!!

Change???

Have u ever heard of the saying “Change the changeable, accept the unchangeable, and remove yourself from the unacceptable.”….well a lot of people have somehow made me realise this…even more so now than ever!!

When your in a environment for too long, u realise tht there are things u can change and there are some tht just cant…and the funny thing is…just when u think u can change it…it strikes u like thunder…some voice from god knows where tells u… “Don’t bother….your wasting your time…”…especially when u hit the comfort zone…

It’s been a thing in me of the need to be in control makes me feel less complicated…and for some who know me…know me for this super need to be there…at that moment….embracing it as it comes…I cannot understand why some just keep their gaps shut and roll on with the flow and hope for the best! How can one achieve anything and don’t do anything about it? And so this has been a case for my stay here in WKESP! There have been millions of times where I have voiced out issues…taboo to some! But the sad thing is…the ISSUES have not been addressed…at least to the extend of how I want it solved…I know things take time…but if its too long…it just gets swept under the carpet…good riddance???

A few people here need to leave to understand my theory…it has come to my attention tht I have been a little too loud and perhaps…by me leaving is one less noisy person to worry about? I believe tht if your not happy with something…and this contributing to ones unhappiness…hmmm….do something about it…after all only u make things happen…

People whine and bitch at the silliest of things…but they stop there…I hope with all the noise tht I have made with this place….will finally benefit the ones who r still around…coz I hold on dearly to the principles I have grown up with… and change is necessary when u know it can happen for the better! Whether it is from within or your environment…champagne anyone????

Finally...the day has come!

I’ve not written for a while now…too many things have happened! Anyways…the good news is tht am leaving WKESP…tendered my resignation today and most of them were shocked…speechless even…I think it was something like…”am not too sure to be happy or sad tht ur leaving…hmmmm”….and I am just spinning around like a helicopter…something kids would do when their on top of the world…

Oh well…I am just excited...needed this change…for myself and for the people I love…it was the fastest transition ever in my life…I submitted my resume on Wednesday…got the interview on Thursday and got the job on Friday…and here I am tendering my resignation the coming Monday…phewww…u call tht speedy Gonzales or what…..!!!!!!!

Will be going to KL…am thrilled for leaving Cyberjaya after 5 years…I needed to get the hang of the hustle and bustle of the city…I know I will like the change of ambience…looking forward to all tht and more…

To the gals and guys of WKESP…u know what u have to do…I love u still! M totally gonna miss u guys…loads of love always…mwahhhhhhhhhhh

Geethan & Gaitri's Wedding (17/06/2006) & Dinner (18/06/2006)

So…what can I say about Geethan and Gai? Well these 2 were definitely made for each other…and of coz listening to the stories of how they met and how they courted each other…it all sounds like a fairy tale…one would wonder if there is such a thing…and believe here’s one to proof all of them wrong!!!!

I attended their wedding in the kalamandapam Scott road temple hall and there they were…all pretty and dandy…not to forget all those I met when I was I penang…they all looked so good! Prem and his family and all the rest…Nishan and Jeyanthi all grown up….and yes…not to forget, Saras!!!

I would not have missed this wedding for the world…Gai has always been there for me…and will always be…and the last thing I could ever do was say no! A small thing I could do for her..i did the kolam for the wedding hall…a small contribution…it was priceless! Everybody loved it…and I must say…I think prem and I are going to start some sort of business together…rite prem????? Hahahhaha

I had the best of time in Penang…also attended the wedding dinner at the sunway hotel and they were gorgeous! Everyone was at his or her best and it was a good day! (although I wish I was there when Gai was planning to give left, right center to the banquet manager)…haahhaha…u go girl!

We managed to do a small flower arrangement for the kudam in front and hopefully it turned good…! Saras and I went thru quite a bit for this…and as usual we were made the grand entrance…not enough time to do the deco…ahhahhahahhaha!

I got to know Saras a whole lot better and u know what Prem…one of the best things that’s happened to u! I promised to say this to u at your wedding…eheheheheh…but u know wht…I shall speak my mind…as always…

So here’s to Geethan and Gai…the best couple of the year…all the best and we want to see kutty Geethan’s and Gais’s real soon….love u all to death and thanks for making me feel part of the family…

I had the best time…

Perhentian Island Trip…

Across the clear blue seas of Terengganu Lies Perhentian Island, a paradise…In natural environs that time almost forgot. By day or night, every moment was a pleasure. Far, far away from the busy city's pressure. Blue skies, white sandy beaches and turquoise sea...T’was truly the place we wanted to be….

Yes indeed…everything was amazing on the island…it was breathtakingly beautiful and we had a blast…I must say!!! So Nadia, Dzul, Zura and I got packing and fled to this remarkably said island and we were there by Friday Morning after a long bus ride the night before…(bumpy and horribly long drive)…

As we got to the Island, we were just speechless…it was ravishing and hmmm…it was gorgeous…the sea, the sky, the trees, the chalets, the people…everything had a beauty of its own….pretty! We found a chalet after hours of searching (thanks Dzul!!) and finally got to take our first shower after like 13 hours of travelling!!!! And u know what, at the back of our minds, we just wanted to plunge into the sea….we could not wait any longer….

And yes, we dived straight in and it was brilliant! The water was so clear we could see rite to our feet, the sand was white like snow, and so fine….it was definitely teasing….

Meeting Point Café was our usual dining ambience and we just loved it…they were nice, friendly and we got super service! We did not feel like eating anywhere else…and the view from the café was definitely pleasing…I did not want to be anywhere else but here….

Snorkling was fun…we got to see so many underwater creatures, corals, cute fishes…wow..tht was something to remember…we even got to depths we could not even touch the sea bed….Nadia and Dauh were two proud-souls! Honestly, at tht time, we did not even think twice, we just kept swimming, and swimming and swimming…(u know what I mean if u’ve watched finding nemo!!)…winks)

If u decide to go for a vacation on a beach…we’d recommend Perhentian Island…we were overwhelmed!!

Thank guys…u made it even more memorable!!! 3 nights of splendid peace…

P/S: Happy Birthday Aumi…

Gym...gym....GyM!!

Arghhh…the gym!!!!

Well it was my first day yesterday at Fitness First @ IOI Mall and it was pretty good…Wai Lee and I arrived around 7.15pm and the place was jam-packed!!!!! So many people, all kinda blur also I must add…not knowing how to use the machines like it should…

One gal tripped and fell over the treadmill…hmmmm…her face literally on the floor at the end of the whole fiasco…poor thing!

So we did a full 2 km walk on the treadmill (mind u @ 5.5km/p) :)…and I did the rowing for another 2km…and I was bumped by the end of the whole thing!!!! Felt like we were flying when we got off the treadmill though…funny, a full 2 minutes before we got our postures rite..it was hilarious….

Too bad we missed the body step exercise thingy!! Am going for Yoga tomorrow for sure…by hook or crook…hehhhehhheh

Wai Lee was too tired to do anything else after tht…so was i…food was constantly in our minds!! Geeshhh…after all tht calorie burning…hmmmm

And yes…we headed to Thai Express and ate like…well pigs!! Spicy and it was filling…gosh we could not finish it and well…we were just thrilled!

So am definitely looking forward to the group exercising and yes…this is ultimatum…yippieee…I finally signed up after a long time waiting…..

P/S: anxiously waiting for the results for team leader and relationship manager posts…fingers crossed…mom…u praying for me right???

am i not good enough???

I haven't the slightest clue how to even begin with the way i felt for the last few days...everything seems sooo...hmmmm...

It was one of the best experience in my life last week...wait…maybe the worst...all the crying, the pain, the sorrow...only my family and close friends knew how i felt...and they've been sooo supportive...funny how life takes you on a roller coaster ride....oh..sometimes i wish it never happened....

My mom has always been there for me...and although we had some rough times these past few months...she was there when i needed her most...like every mother knows wht to say to keep things calm...i love u ma...and my dad was just so understanding....so why do i need to get myself a man if i have it all to be happy...

....like Madonna says " the only thing u can depend on is your family!" how true...i'd like to add that with a few friends....

i thought i fell in love...well maybe i did...but then again...when i look back...maybe it was the best April fool joke ever...hmmm...it was hurting nevertheless…

Sometimes when people say all u want to hear...beware!!...it might not be all true...and the truth hurts...oh it hurts!! especially when u least expect it! u go like...why me...why does this have to happen to me???!!!!???? i am not a bad person...so why meeeee!!!???!!! (pondering still...)

The one thing i can say is that when u love someone and u want to be with tht someone...be truthful to urself...and make sure u know wht u want...coz otherwise...dun lie...dun say things because u have to...dun do it because ur expected to....DO IT BECAUSE U WANT TO!!!!

The experience i had last week has thought me a lot of things....u know who ur true friends are...and at the end of the day...ur always ur parents princess! I’d like to remember my days knowing I always have people who love me for who I m…and not wanting to change any of it!!

U guys know who u r….i love u!

P/S: Happy anniversary ma…pa…