...Me PersonaL ConfessionS, ExperienceS, AnecdotE, LifE StorY, MemoiR, ReminisceS...

Sources of Inspiration ----------------------------- In- spirit

2007-06-04T09:36:00.000+08:00

My lovely journey...here, now and more...

books
1) The Secret by Rhonda Byrne
2) Conversations with God by Neale Donald Walsch (Book 1)
3) You Can Heal Your Life by Louisse L. Hay
4) The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle
5) A Woman's Worth by Marianne Williamson
6) Many Lives, Many Masters by Brian L. Weiss
7) Out on a Limb by Shirley Maclaine
8) 10 Secrets for Success and Inner Peace
9) Like Water for Chocolate by Laura Esquiel

movie/dvd
1) What the Bleep?
2) The Secret & Oprah Winfrey Talkshow
3) Introducing Abraham
4) The Law of Attraction
5) Peaceful Warrior
6) Conversations with God

The Secret...

2007-05-14T16:03:00.000+08:00

I was introduced to the Secret…

And life has been ever so beautiful since…I cannot explain the feeling…but it has given me so much…so much love and joy…a wonderful journey…this is just the beginning…

When the student is ready the teacher will appear….oh I am rediscovering so much…everyday!

Thank You God for bringing me happiness and love in my life… I am open and receptive to all good and abundance in the universe.

THANK YOU.

There goes the mane!!!

2007-04-25T08:48:00.000+08:00

So I finally got to cut my hair…..phewww!!!!! wht a relief la…it just feels so damn good…easy maintenance and well…I cud save the few extra bucks…haahhahah

Mom finally caved in (although i have yet to tell her..)..i feel like she just had to…something we’ve been struggling with all these years…had the heart to heart talk again about marriage…and hmmmm….u’d know how it turned out!!

I just wish good things happen and to all the good ones…happy still?? Question I need to ask myself every now and then…

Cheers to more better times…

P/S: I so need it!!

My first out of this Country experience..to be!!!

2007-03-12T15:34:00.000+08:00

So guess wht….m finally getting on the plane to PHUKET!!!!!!!!!! And thanks to my sis aumi…she wanted me to fly before my 30th birthday…..is she awesome or wht…..!!!

And she booked it today….wohooooooooooooooo over AIRASIA and I am just so flabbergasted and thrilled…I was jumping off my seat when she told me today…ahahhha…and me speechless….

M finally going on the plane…alllallalalalalallallalalllala….Aug 1st – Aug 8th 2007..

P/S: Now go get the freakin passport pleaseeeeeee….

WNE 2650...:(

2007-01-12T16:15:00.000+08:00

My baby…

8th of Jan 2007… a week into the New Year and I meet with an accident….good start?? U tell me….

Slippery roads...it was pouring buffalos…bloody old Chinese man….arghhhhhhhhhhhh…awful!

Thank you for taking all the hurting baby...u protected me…miss u so much!!! DANG!

Hello 2007!!

2006-12-22T10:39:00.000+08:00

Much has happened…I had a horrible argument with my family…and am just so angry with a lot of things…so much so it drove me up the wall…

U know the saying u always hurt the ones u love most….oh dear how true is tht????? I might have said some things…not very nice things…but I guess…everyone almost…say the wrong things when they r really angry….

Am trying to make amends now…and not sure if they (u know who u r..!!) will forgive me…2006 has not been a cup of tea for me…and am sure those who are close to me will know this for a fact!

So m looking forward to the New Year…and hope as things happen for a reason…happen for the better…here’s something…!!!

"There's a choice you have to make in everything you do. You must always keep in mind that the choice you make in the end makes you."

P/S: Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year everyone!!!

My Tarrot Card says...

2006-12-16T10:14:00.000+08:00

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

What Tarot Card are You?

Take the Test to Find Out.

busy busy bee...

2006-11-28T16:34:00.000+08:00

Time is something i can't get hold of now...and everytime i tell myself to write something...i forget..or am just bogged down with loads of work....calemdar YEAR 2007 is not funny!!

i cannot imagine the students workload here...i think i was pretty blessed with my course of study in uni....hmmm...am fighting suttly for the kids...hoping they make disticnt changes for the better....

will write soon i promise....am domesticated now...sigh! i wanna feel this way now--->

mY very own laptop finally!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-25T19:17:00.000+08:00

AND SO....

i finally got myself a laptop...after searching for a good one..high and low...heehhhheh! am so excited...my very own OMG!

things have been pretty great..i finally got a new job and things at home and family are fab! i am sooo happy...i cant describe it in words...it's like...hmmmm...lovely!

been a while since i felt like this....more to come i hope....cheers!!

Sunway ...here i come!

2006-10-12T11:58:00.000+08:00

So….it was brought to my attention that….hahhahahaahahaa…am free…am free…finally am free….lllalla..lallaa..lala.llalla.llall..dumm deee dumm..dumm dee..!

I have been sick as a puppy for the longest time in years…and nothing can make me feel better than knowing am leaving this another shithole..yipppieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I cannot describe the crazy feeling inside…but I had to tell them…and I did….I AM NOT HAPPY AND I WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE I WILL BE HAPPIER!!!!!…They were shocked…didn’t think I’d say it huh…in your face man…in your bloody face!

To know that there are people like this in the world??? Gawdddd so many cruel people…so many people who have so called ‘people skills’…hahaaha all I can do is laugh now…am gonna groom myself to be better and not to ever hopefully meet these kind of people…and believe me….if I do…I’ll definitely have something to say...Sunway here I come!

Too much shit!!!!

2006-10-03T10:02:00.000+08:00

There is just too much shit going on…! Being blamed for things I did not do. better still after the idiots decided it…and yet it came back to me like a slap on the face! I feel so much discrimination here…it’s not funny!!!!

The others could do anything (knowing well enough that it is wrong) and they get off free…and somehow when I do it…it’s “oh my god…how could you do that, who gave u the right to think? Where is your credibility??????”

I just cant wait to leave…cant even tell mom or dad coz they will just not understand! They might think that I am just whining and bitching, but in actual fact, I feel like shit, degraded and ugly.

Where are YOU when I need you most?

duh!!!!

2006-09-26T08:08:00.000+08:00

I know I have not written for a long time…I had loads in my mind…and just could not find a reason to write anything specific…I can’t believe this…. why is this happening to me? Just when I thought the transition was amazing…so I got into this company thinking that its gonna be great…well…I thought wrong…hmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They revamped my offer letter (got it only after 1 month in the company) and they just changed everything…and guess what…with a pay cut even…sigh!!!! I should have listened to my dad…he said that’s the first thing u should have collected when the agreement was set…and then leave the previous company…

But did I do that????? No….”he’ said…my word is truth, lets shake on it!!!! And I believed him…I did…I gave him the benefit of the doubt…and I trusted his every word…only to find out, everything went through a roller coaster ride…somehow or rather…am pretty unlucky with issues as such….

Do I go along with my new jd??? (which changed like 4 times since I got in) or do I look for greener pastures? I don’t know…am so blur and stressed out…my period has yet to stop from 21/2 weeks….duh!!!!!!!!!!

See u later????

2006-08-11T15:04:00.000+08:00

And the time has come…my leaving from WKESP…arghhhhh it was a roller coaster…emotional ride….part of me was so excited…and yet the other really sad for leaving the friends I found….and definitely for keeps!!!!!!!!!!!

They gave me the best birthday and farewell…felt like a million bucks…..(ahem…really!!!)..thanks to all their effort…I just love them for this….so here’s to more good times…am gonna miss u guys….

I hate goodbyes….am crying already!!!!!

Change???

2006-07-26T11:27:00.000+08:00

Have u ever heard of the saying “Change the changeable, accept the unchangeable, and remove yourself from the unacceptable.”….well a lot of people have somehow made me realise this…even more so now than ever!!

When your in a environment for too long, u realise tht there are things u can change and there are some tht just cant…and the funny thing is…just when u think u can change it…it strikes u like thunder…some voice from god knows where tells u… “Don’t bother….your wasting your time…”…especially when u hit the comfort zone…

It’s been a thing in me of the need to be in control makes me feel less complicated…and for some who know me…know me for this super need to be there…at that moment….embracing it as it comes…I cannot understand why some just keep their gaps shut and roll on with the flow and hope for the best! How can one achieve anything and don’t do anything about it? And so this has been a case for my stay here in WKESP! There have been millions of times where I have voiced out issues…taboo to some! But the sad thing is…the ISSUES have not been addressed…at least to the extend of how I want it solved…I know things take time…but if its too long…it just gets swept under the carpet…good riddance???

A few people here need to leave to understand my theory…it has come to my attention tht I have been a little too loud and perhaps…by me leaving is one less noisy person to worry about? I believe tht if your not happy with something…and this contributing to ones unhappiness…hmmm….do something about it…after all only u make things happen…

People whine and bitch at the silliest of things…but they stop there…I hope with all the noise tht I have made with this place….will finally benefit the ones who r still around…coz I hold on dearly to the principles I have grown up with… and change is necessary when u know it can happen for the better! Whether it is from within or your environment…champagne anyone????

Finally...the day has come!

2006-07-24T14:47:00.000+08:00

I’ve not written for a while now…too many things have happened! Anyways…the good news is tht am leaving WKESP…tendered my resignation today and most of them were shocked…speechless even…I think it was something like…”am not too sure to be happy or sad tht ur leaving…hmmmm”….and I am just spinning around like a helicopter…something kids would do when their on top of the world…

Oh well…I am just excited...needed this change…for myself and for the people I love…it was the fastest transition ever in my life…I submitted my resume on Wednesday…got the interview on Thursday and got the job on Friday…and here I am tendering my resignation the coming Monday…phewww…u call tht speedy Gonzales or what…..!!!!!!!

Will be going to KL…am thrilled for leaving Cyberjaya after 5 years…I needed to get the hang of the hustle and bustle of the city…I know I will like the change of ambience…looking forward to all tht and more…

To the gals and guys of WKESP…u know what u have to do…I love u still! M totally gonna miss u guys…loads of love always…mwahhhhhhhhhhh

Geethan & Gaitri's Wedding (17/06/2006) & Dinner (18/06/2006)

2006-06-23T12:43:00.000+08:00

So…what can I say about Geethan and Gai? Well these 2 were definitely made for each other…and of coz listening to the stories of how they met and how they courted each other…it all sounds like a fairy tale…one would wonder if there is such a thing…and believe here’s one to proof all of them wrong!!!!

I attended their wedding in the kalamandapam Scott road temple hall and there they were…all pretty and dandy…not to forget all those I met when I was I penang…they all looked so good! Prem and his family and all the rest…Nishan and Jeyanthi all grown up….and yes…not to forget, Saras!!!

I would not have missed this wedding for the world…Gai has always been there for me…and will always be…and the last thing I could ever do was say no! A small thing I could do for her..i did the kolam for the wedding hall…a small contribution…it was priceless! Everybody loved it…and I must say…I think prem and I are going to start some sort of business together…rite prem????? Hahahhaha

I had the best of time in Penang…also attended the wedding dinner at the sunway hotel and they were gorgeous! Everyone was at his or her best and it was a good day! (although I wish I was there when Gai was planning to give left, right center to the banquet manager)…haahhaha…u go girl!

We managed to do a small flower arrangement for the kudam in front and hopefully it turned good…! Saras and I went thru quite a bit for this…and as usual we were made the grand entrance…not enough time to do the deco…ahhahhahahhaha!

I got to know Saras a whole lot better and u know what Prem…one of the best things that’s happened to u! I promised to say this to u at your wedding…eheheheheh…but u know wht…I shall speak my mind…as always…

So here’s to Geethan and Gai…the best couple of the year…all the best and we want to see kutty Geethan’s and Gais’s real soon….love u all to death and thanks for making me feel part of the family…

I had the best time…

Perhentian Island Trip…

2006-05-19T14:58:00.000+08:00

Across the clear blue seas of Terengganu Lies Perhentian Island, a paradise…In natural environs that time almost forgot. By day or night, every moment was a pleasure. Far, far away from the busy city's pressure. Blue skies, white sandy beaches and turquoise sea...T’was truly the place we wanted to be….

Yes indeed…everything was amazing on the island…it was breathtakingly beautiful and we had a blast…I must say!!! So Nadia, Dzul, Zura and I got packing and fled to this remarkably said island and we were there by Friday Morning after a long bus ride the night before…(bumpy and horribly long drive)…

As we got to the Island, we were just speechless…it was ravishing and hmmm…it was gorgeous…the sea, the sky, the trees, the chalets, the people…everything had a beauty of its own….pretty! We found a chalet after hours of searching (thanks Dzul!!) and finally got to take our first shower after like 13 hours of travelling!!!! And u know what, at the back of our minds, we just wanted to plunge into the sea….we could not wait any longer….

And yes, we dived straight in and it was brilliant! The water was so clear we could see rite to our feet, the sand was white like snow, and so fine….it was definitely teasing….

Meeting Point Café was our usual dining ambience and we just loved it…they were nice, friendly and we got super service! We did not feel like eating anywhere else…and the view from the café was definitely pleasing…I did not want to be anywhere else but here….

Snorkling was fun…we got to see so many underwater creatures, corals, cute fishes…wow..tht was something to remember…we even got to depths we could not even touch the sea bed….Nadia and Dauh were two proud-souls! Honestly, at tht time, we did not even think twice, we just kept swimming, and swimming and swimming…(u know what I mean if u’ve watched finding nemo!!)…winks)

If u decide to go for a vacation on a beach…we’d recommend Perhentian Island…we were overwhelmed!!

Thank guys…u made it even more memorable!!! 3 nights of splendid peace…

P/S: Happy Birthday Aumi…

Gym...gym....GyM!!

2006-04-26T17:14:00.000+08:00

Arghhh…the gym!!!!

Well it was my first day yesterday at Fitness First @ IOI Mall and it was pretty good…Wai Lee and I arrived around 7.15pm and the place was jam-packed!!!!! So many people, all kinda blur also I must add…not knowing how to use the machines like it should…

One gal tripped and fell over the treadmill…hmmmm…her face literally on the floor at the end of the whole fiasco…poor thing!

So we did a full 2 km walk on the treadmill (mind u @ 5.5km/p) :)…and I did the rowing for another 2km…and I was bumped by the end of the whole thing!!!! Felt like we were flying when we got off the treadmill though…funny, a full 2 minutes before we got our postures rite..it was hilarious….

Too bad we missed the body step exercise thingy!! Am going for Yoga tomorrow for sure…by hook or crook…hehhhehhheh

Wai Lee was too tired to do anything else after tht…so was i…food was constantly in our minds!! Geeshhh…after all tht calorie burning…hmmmm

And yes…we headed to Thai Express and ate like…well pigs!! Spicy and it was filling…gosh we could not finish it and well…we were just thrilled!

So am definitely looking forward to the group exercising and yes…this is ultimatum…yippieee…I finally signed up after a long time waiting…..

P/S: anxiously waiting for the results for team leader and relationship manager posts…fingers crossed…mom…u praying for me right???

am i not good enough???

2006-04-11T11:44:00.000+08:00

I haven't the slightest clue how to even begin with the way i felt for the last few days...everything seems sooo...hmmmm...

It was one of the best experience in my life last week...wait…maybe the worst...all the crying, the pain, the sorrow...only my family and close friends knew how i felt...and they've been sooo supportive...funny how life takes you on a roller coaster ride....oh..sometimes i wish it never happened....

My mom has always been there for me...and although we had some rough times these past few months...she was there when i needed her most...like every mother knows wht to say to keep things calm...i love u ma...and my dad was just so understanding....so why do i need to get myself a man if i have it all to be happy...

....like Madonna says " the only thing u can depend on is your family!" how true...i'd like to add that with a few friends....

i thought i fell in love...well maybe i did...but then again...when i look back...maybe it was the best April fool joke ever...hmmm...it was hurting nevertheless…

Sometimes when people say all u want to hear...beware!!...it might not be all true...and the truth hurts...oh it hurts!! especially when u least expect it! u go like...why me...why does this have to happen to me???!!!!???? i am not a bad person...so why meeeee!!!???!!! (pondering still...)

The one thing i can say is that when u love someone and u want to be with tht someone...be truthful to urself...and make sure u know wht u want...coz otherwise...dun lie...dun say things because u have to...dun do it because ur expected to....DO IT BECAUSE U WANT TO!!!!

The experience i had last week has thought me a lot of things....u know who ur true friends are...and at the end of the day...ur always ur parents princess! I’d like to remember my days knowing I always have people who love me for who I m…and not wanting to change any of it!!

U guys know who u r….i love u!

P/S: Happy anniversary ma…pa…

For better or worse...

2006-03-31T07:29:00.000+08:00

Goodness gracious me!! It’s just been a crazy month for my whole team…we took over New Zealand products and still doing Australian and Asian products as well…I have 6 products running coherently, and it’s not funny!! Have not been out to do the usual shit…arghhhhh…life is always unfair eh? Tell me about it…

Things with mom has not really been settled…I guess am just too busy right now to have tht also in my mind…besides I need some space and am sure she needs hers…something I have not dealt with in a long time…all this shit for tht 1 month…hmmmm…totally not worth it I must say!!!

Although I had fun in so many other ways with all my cousins whom I have not met in ages…but when it came to my own family…I was falling apart…aumi was the only one who came running to my aid…when I least expected!!! That made it all more loving and worth while…she’s amazing Aumi…always there to put up with my crap…and always there for more lovin!!!!!!!!!!

Anyways I just hope all will end well and I told my mom I will come home when I am a-o-k! I just need some sorting out…hahahhaha!!

P/S: can’t wait to clear NEML 167, ANST 89, ACRU 245, ZMHR 30, NCY 113, NCP 270…bless me!

First Impressions!!

2006-02-22T10:57:00.000+08:00

So…Sharm and I finally met up after all my family gatherings….we ended up in Passions and later went to Cynaa…we had a blast!!

Sharm wanted me to meet Vikram (her current bf now!), Michael and Naomi and they seemed really nice…although we were almost “there” tht night….we weren’t dancing much though…something Sharm and I used to do quite a bit all the time…and we had a few numbers and tht’s it….

I guess when ur trying so hard to make a good first impression, one tends to forget to have fun!! But I guess the funny thing is by the end of tht nite…somehow things naturally revealed itself!! Am I shocked? Well I was at first…but these things are only predictable when one is toxicated…ahahahahahaha! I guess u truly understand wht I mean….

But anyhoooss….we had a good time and yes we must do this again….all the best Sharm with Vikram…u guys look good together…winks winks!

P/S: Teh tarik anyone?…

Alina's reunion party!

2006-02-13T15:17:00.000+08:00

boy...did we have fun...it's just been too long...6 months...!

Nadia, Alina and I decided to do the traditional dinner @ Bumbu Bali...and drinks after @ Waikiki Bar...we just had the best time....almost drunk...hahahhaahh! i have to say....alina and nadia were just soooo hot tht we got so many drinks at our table with lil notes....ahahhahahha!!! (the guys just could not hold it in...winks) and yes...we drank, drank and drank summore....cheers u guys!

i just wish there are more times like this....we walked down memory lane...laughed till our guts came out...it could not have been better...heehehhhe...too bad dzul could not join us! he was too busy with his gf's bday party.....noti!

we bitched to glory, updating alina with the hottest office gossips and she was just so thrilled...nothing has chaged much around the office since she left..she said...but lots has changed among our personal lives...it was just briliant!

we got dressed up...and yes we had the wildest time....we should do this more often.....U BET!

P/S: love u gals!!

Ciggy addict?

2006-02-13T09:26:00.000+08:00

I took my first ciggy yesterday after 6 good weeks…!!! Am I proud abt it? Well am not too sure….proud with the fact tht I managed for 6 weeks…funny thing is…I started for the same reasons I quit…my mom!!

She was just being a prick since the year started and I could no longer take the stress…it used to be so much easier to deal with her…when I was smoking the whole time before…!! She just took me to the tops with the episode on sat nite in Zeta Bar…..now tht I can’t handle…

Contradicting herself…hmmphhh…am so upset…I have lost for words…..maybe now I would be able to handle the situation better?

P/S: I love u mom…but sometimes…I just dun understand u!

CNY holidays...

2006-02-07T08:32:00.000+08:00

Funny how u’d think tht the 1-week holiday would give u the rest u need…I beg to differ…!

My plans to Penang were cancelled coz of my uncles prayers and I had to stick around in KL to do most of the running around! My cousins from Aussie were down and I kinda took them out for shopping (although it was almost empty during CNY)…they just keep converting for everything! It’s darn cheap…dirt-cheap…hmmmm….well I would prolly say too if I was earning in Aussie dollars….ahhahhahahhaha!!!!

Spent a lot of $$$…thts for sure and am looking forward to pay day already…hmmm…why r u not surprised eh! Anyways…it was good to do something else for a change…u know the going to bed late…the waking up late…the no need lunch thingy…can do the dishes and laundry later….it was great la…ehhehehehehe!

So am looking forward to another long holiday to absolutely do nothing and just be a bum!

P/S: Yay…Alina’s back!

AMTE 5 not over?

2006-01-25T10:54:00.000+08:00

Proof reading???…just when I tot I am done and over with AMTE 5!!!! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

I can finally see it looking like a book…everything seems super to me…Hahhahaha! But Kamal has to confirm this definitely!

So…what have I planned for my holiday? Well was thinking of going to penang…and then tht got cancelled last minute…sob sob…but I guess I shall just spend some quality time with me cousins from aussie…. they’ve been here for a week now and I haven’t sat down and had a proper conversation with either of them..!

Have to go get my car washed…it’s looking like a dirty fish tank now…(having finding nemo scene in mind!!)...till more..

P/S: Happy Burp day Jay!!

AMTE finally cleared!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-01-23T12:19:00.000+08:00

Hahahha…and I finally cleared AMTE….phew…this was a tough one and yes….my team was really motivating and supportive….could not have done this all alone….winks mischievously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So…it’s been 23 days since I quit smoking…and never felt better…the last week has been really stressful…with the book project and the passing away of my grand uncle…things have taken a different turn in my life…

I know whts right for me…London thatha was great…he came down for the funeral..although we did not spend much time together….i know the lil moments were a delight….love u thatha!!

So cheers to kamal and me for clearing the book on time…lets see if the $$$ comes as promised…ahhahhahahhaha!!!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday mom…

2006-01-16T09:11:00.000+08:00

My sis and I took mom and family to TGIF for her birthday…something she never had…and we tot this might be something special...haahhaha….and we all loved it…though it was the usual dig in the pocket….all worth it….the reaction on moms face was priceless….!!

Dad was rattling on and on about how expensive the dishes were…and how we could put the money to good use…dad finally chipped in as well…he’s always like tht…..love u pa….

Grandma had her vegetarian pasta and all…dad had his vegetarian tortilla’s…mom had salmon…Thayaa had New Orleans Jambalaya….I had the JD chicken and yes…aumi had her nachos….the strawberry margarita was excellent…what can I say about the mud pies…yummminesssssssssssssssssssssssss and the boys and gals of TGIF gave mom a birthday song…ahhahhahahhaha!!!!

So here’s to more mom…good times…we love u!!

Ponggal Valtukal….

2006-01-14T13:36:00.000+08:00

So…happy Ponggal everyone…nice day…good feeling…off to mom’s for some small prayers and to the temple after tht….moms birthday tomm and I am just so excited…the war over between us? Well pretty much I guess…but the wounds remain…and I think it will take a while before it will really heal…

Anyways...its been 2 weeks now…“nicotine free”….wohoooo!! I had faith tht I could do this…although the eating habits is a bit of a concern…I seem to feel hungry all the time now..and me cousins are all worrying me about people who quit get bigger!!! Hmmm…ponders!

Anyhoo….its been a good two weeks now…am in my last week of my book project and am off to a good holiday…been working on this project for like 3 months already…arghhhh….i eat, sleep, think AMTE!! Gosh….

So…hope u all are having a great start with 2006! I know I am…..loves u

It’s been a week!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-01-07T09:16:00.000+08:00

Oh my goodness….I cannot believe this…it’s been a week since I quit smoking and never felt better….although my war with my mom is still on…hmmmm!!!!

All my friends have been really supportive with my decision…and are still in awe with the cold turkey bit…heheehhee…something I never thought I could do….not as easy as it is now….

Well we got our new employment contracts yesterday…i got a small increment…nothing much really, but better than nothing…some of my good friends wasn’t as lucky…some even thinking of greener pastures…sigh!!

If these good friends leave…I will lose really good friends…friends who have been there through thick and thin…(u guys know who u all are!!!)…I am hoping tht all of them will soon be blessed with something greater and happier…love u all!

P/S: Aumi i know u can do this too...u have my support too!!!!

Howdy 2006!!!!!

2006-01-04T10:00:00.000+08:00

So...the new year has already begun...and guess wht....my new year's resolution is to quit smoking....!!!!!!!!!

and here i am...going to my fourth day...and never felt better! mom kinda found out, and it was only easier to quit!!! one only has to find a good reason and it's easy....so cold turkey it is!

everyone i know is kinda shocked....well i am tyring to make a point to myself tht i can do this!...it's important tht i keep this promise...it means the world to me....so here it is 2006....come get me!!!!!!!!!!!!

P/S: “A new year is unfolding – like a blossom with petals curled tightly concealing the beauty within.”

Sayonara 2005!!!!!!

2005-12-30T09:35:00.000+08:00

It’s been absolutely an interesting year for me…started off with a little hiccup…being with LIM KOK WING and all….but later…I joined WKESP and it’s been great ever since….my good friends, family and colleagues have been VERY SUPPORTIVE…and just made 2005 a memorable one…! I have made really good and special friends…u guys know who u all are and it’s been brilliant!

I have started indulging myself in spiritual concerns and it has just brought a whole new meaning to my life! Never felt better…although mom gets topsy turvy at times…but hey…I think it’s more a shocking news to her than anything else…first the temple going, then being vegetarian on certain days…and jasmine flowers and my head????? It’s all too much sometimes…I just love it….thank you GANESHA….I feel like a better person already!!!

So a toast to 2005…thank you!! Welcome 2006…hoping u will be better and will bring happier times…

P/S: I love u

Le Meridien Christmas Party!

2005-12-29T10:45:00.000+08:00

Our company Christmas dinner party was held at the Le Meridien Hotel in Kuala Lumpur! Loads of fun, food, drinks and goodies…we had a short time to organize this party and I must say…the Happy Hours Club pulled it through…thank you guys…I would not have been able to do it without your help…u guys know who u r…!!!!!!

We had an 8 course Chinese dinner…food was good, loads of drinks (beer, wine, fruit juices…winks!!) and we had a wonderful time…getting there was half the fun…ahhahhahahhaha!!! All of us got stuck in mid traffic jam , heading towards KL Central was no easy walk in the park…

But we got there in one piece and the night was all ours…thanks Peter for letting us have this!!

P/S: Nadia and Dzul…u guys the best!

Merry Christmas!

2005-12-28T10:17:00.000+08:00

Christmas was just wonderful…although it was a spiritual one for me…! I went to Kulim (Dhyana Ashram) for prayers…went to see my parents Swamiji and he was nice as ever! So down to earth, so knowledgeable…it was just brilliant!

I felt so rejuvenated tht the feeling was just indescribable…loads of mantras and slokas…it was really inspiring!! Ganesha, Amman and Murugan looked their best and it was definitely a day to remember…

Did loads of driving from Kulim to penang and back and forth but it was all worth it! I just felt different, more peace with myself! Like I said, am lost for words!!

I just hope tht my path to spirituality will grow from here…it was definitely a memorable day for me…my parents just loved every bit of it!…thank you Swamiji for making it special for me…

P/S: Merry X’mas everyone!!!

Swamiji's influence...

2005-12-20T08:54:00.000+08:00

So am going to Kulim this weekend for some good prayers! Christmas this year is definitely gonna be spiritual for me…as I have started my temple –going, I am hoping that things will take a positive turn next year! Like I said, most of us always think of ‘HIM’ when we need something or when our loved ones are in danger…will this ever change?

My mom kind of saw her Swamiji and was paranoid about me not getting into the ‘wedding bliss’ mood! And so this is one of the major reasons I am going to see swamiji this weekend as well…he is one super guru, everything he says makes sense, and he is really lovable! My parents an in awe of him and they enjoy his spiritual classes, and he talks about life…as simple as it gets!!

Mom and Dad were always excited when Swamiji used to come over to have lunch! She cooked with all her heart and Swamiji always had the nicest of things to say…mom always took it as a blessing, something special she could do for her Swamiji…he is simply nice…

So am going to start taking this journey and hopefully be there someday…hope to see u there too….

P/S: Holy Matrimony???

Temple-going buddy!

2005-12-14T16:59:00.000+08:00

I’ve always wanted to go to temple frequently…u know…to get spiritual peace!! Somehow I never forced myself to find the time to seek HIM…always called upon HIM when I needed something or when someone I loved was in trouble…but recently tht all has changed…I always wanted to just go there, and somehow at the back of my mind I knew I would feel peaceful…don’t know how to describe it…but it’s just a wonderful feeling…

Devan finally came back…a brother full of reverence…so much love, so much giving! Well he was now very much into being spiritual and he promised to be my temple-going buddy…and it has been great since….went to the Perumal temple last week and he took me to the Shiva and Amman temple in Bukit Gasing yesterday! PRICELESS I TELL YA….

I never felt better about myself and my surroundings….my mom always told me to have time to go to temples…not about ritual or traditions…but to find peace within oneself…it’s just different…HE is everywhere…but somehow the vibrations from temples is divine! I just fell in love with tht feeling…I needed an excuse to crack the ignorance!

So here I am…a different person, different feeling, different intentions! I want to do this more than ever and I am glad I found to do it now! (u might think its too late? But it’s never too late…never ever!) and I am sure many can vouch for this…I don’t know how I could be so unmindful….hmmm…I know I am going to love this journey true and true!!

P/S: It’s been beautiful, it’s been pleasing, it’s been overwhelming….

tickle.com/tests

2005-12-09T09:20:00.000+08:00

An amazing site...take on these tests!

How Sinful Are You? What's Your Bridget Jones Moment? What's Your Destiny?

http://web.tickle.com/tests/

Weekender!

2005-12-05T15:55:00.000+08:00

Good weekend i must say...spent a lot of quality time with friends...the world is a better place with them around!! (u guys know who u r....winks!)

had grandma's birthday thingy and she was just all surpirsed and happy...prolly for tht 2 seconds...and then she went on "i m not in the mood" mode...i pity my mom!...tolerating all this for the longest time...grandma is one hard one to crack...nothing my mom does can ever please her...i would say tht grandma is having a wonderful life...she gets everything...eventhough she doesn't need it...sigh!!

we all do many things to please the ones we love...sometimes..its never enough...how? why? when? where? what? hmmmm....

p/s: mom...i guess she will realise it once it's all gone!!

New oppurtunity?

2005-11-29T09:19:00.000+08:00

well...my team leader gave me some news...good or bad? we'll see in a bit...

so she said there was this opening for an editorial-production liaison...and the job description in brief would be...that this person is the daily business representative who liaises with Cyberjaya - covering reschedules, quality issues, ensuring the correct number of reports goes each year etc.

i was apparently recommended and i was touched at first...coz, i might be based in sydney....but u know wht's the catch? it is only an 18 month contract as they are not sure if it will still be needed once wthey have bedded down all the processes etc...

my team leader said tht i could come back to my present job if they no longer need this liaison person! but the best bit is tht after lata went to see Linda, Linda says tht i might not get to come back to my present job...a job which i have a permanent contract with..! a fool to take it on and not know wht the future lies? hell no....

Lata says tht if i got the interview, i would need to state my end of the bargain,and tht i would be safe to come back if anything should happen.....funny how management works!...it's probably happeneing everywhere? god knows...u think the grass is always greener on the other side...but hey!

i got pist off with some of the implications on claiming OTs!...we all work our ass's off to get a job well done...and they seem to pick on the smaller things...irritates the hell out of me...so i have decided to write a nice email to the management...i think they should know how this is affecting all of us here...

no bonus's, no proper salary increment....hmmmm....(though my mom repeatedly asked me to shut it!)...we'll see where this goes...i will be polite...no worries!!!

p/s: we miss u appachi

Sorry!

2005-11-21T09:22:00.000+08:00

What should I say…aumi and I had this huge argument on Saturday….did not mean for it to happen but I guess…a lil good came out of it…aumi I want to u to know tht I love u with all my heart and the last thing I want is something bad to happen between us…!

Whteva tht happened…I believe always happen for a reason…and by this I hope we affiliated to each other in a more ameliorated level…healthier perhaps! I sure hope so! Although we did not talk about it much after the incident, I guess we both understand the weight of the issue…and will make an effort to reconcile…confident tht u will too!

Sunday was much better…definitely…I guess we have surpassed the matter in hand and hope tht we will come to better conclusion of our relationship together…be it for better or worse!

I love u….always have…always will!! Here’s something...

i shouldn't have yelled

i shouldn't have blamed u

i should have known that some words u said was true

u were always there always sweet and always nice

now i feel so bad for making u pay this price

i don't now if that will ever be the same

i aready feel as if i've lost you

my heart's in so much pain

but befor u leave

there's something u should think thru

just wanted to say i'm sorry

and also that i love u

Friends a feather...flock together!!

2005-11-18T09:21:00.000+08:00

"Blessed are they who have the gift of making friends for it is one of God's best gifts"

have u ever wondered why some have been there more than others? well i have been blessed myself...i have had many good friends in my journey...and i thank god everyday for making me special and to have these special people around me...it's just been all worth it!

this workplace has given me many good friends...they r just not collegues...they are friends in the good times and in the worst of times....i have pretty much gone through the roller coaster ride particularly with this group of friends....

chillies has always been a good place...so here is to more good times...!!

Pearl of The Orient??

2005-11-09T08:56:00.000+08:00

Penang….what can I say…the food is just spectacular!! The Char Koay Teow, Ikan Bakar, Prawn mee, Pasembur, the nutmeg fiesta, the Tau Sah Piah….the list can just go on and on….it is a food heaven for those who love indulging….(oh hell, if it’s once in a while…y not eh?)..we had a good host too…my cousin bro and his wife…

He actually took us all the way to Bukit Tambun for seafood…(yumminess) and to Sungai Petani for good Thai food…it was all worth it…aahhhahah….my mom and aunt were hoping for crabs…but unfortunately they ran out of crabs…sigh!!

All in all we had a super time and anna even took us to the monkey beach…unbelievable!! Breathtaking white sandy beach….clear waters….it only took us minutes before we got into the water…it was mind-blowing!…of coz my mom and sis sat on the shore and were well entertained by the monkeys…hahahha..!

I think anna has taken pupsy’s footsteps at being a good host…dad loves company and so does anna…..he will make a good dad someday…..

P/S: Thanks anna for being u!

Deeps 2005!

2005-11-01T19:56:00.000+08:00

Wow…it was amazing…all of us went for shopping like crazy …all just to look good for the eve and the big day!…ahahahaha…things we used to do when we were small…funny…we were at my parent’s the other day walking down memory lane…telling Matchal how it all used to be when we were kids and how thatha was our hero! He always has been..always will be…

Thatha has always had a big place in my heart…he was my hero…and i loved him…I knew he loved me too…all the stories…all the play…all the laughter…it was just priceless…I still remember when I was lil…thatha used to play firecrackers with us in the porch..and he just knew all the tricks in town…tht was the best eves ever…

We had our carbonated drinks( btw at tht time…it was like a million bucks!) we used to get 2 bottles each….thatha was the man….we grandchildren used to line up single file in front of thatha while he fed us the first meal…breakfast… And only after tht everyone else ate including thatha….we just loved it….we were special he always said…he was always rite…always always…!!!

And then it was ang pow time….wow…tht was loads of fun too…ehheeheheh….we used to collect quite a bit…. happiest times when we were kids…winks! My family and I always used to live the furthest and hence…‘balik kampung’ meant the world to us….we used to always come back to me thatha’s house…(then used to be our lil paradise)…we could do anything and thatha had our backs…no one could touch us….we had our knight and shinning armor!….

And so the memory lives on…wish we could have more of thatha around…god bless his soul…

P/S: Thatha…we love u!

AMTE!

2005-10-25T18:30:00.000+08:00

I have finally started my book project and it's amazing...I was panic-stricken at first...not knowing where to start or how...finally dragged my SE along and had a short nooner...*winks*...got the book started and am still not done with my first chapter....(wondering why r there so many numbers..arghhhhh!!)

the previous PE/SE have not tagged most of the lawrefs and caserefs....and since the book's on master tax examples...u can imagine...all the 2004/2005 is now changed to 2005/2006..the calculations...hmmmmm! am hoping to finsih the chapter by tomm and get started with the next chapters...

was backbreaking at first, u know getting the tagging done correspondingly but it was ok by the end of the day...am getting the hang of it...this is just the tip of the iceberg...am sure there's loads more to come....

P/S: Thanks Alan

Deeps commotion…

2005-10-24T09:46:00.000+08:00

Hahahha…the loveliest thing happened over the weekend…my sis and I decided to go over to my parents place to make some traditional cookies for Deepavali…and it was boisterous! We had so much fun doing it as a family!

After a long time including my grandma were together making the murukku’s, achi murukku’s, kara murukku’s and the omopodi!!!!! (4 palaharams in 1 day…r we good or r we good?) We even thought about selling it to the local canteens…it turned out so good (yumminess)…my sis and I were actually impressed with our culinary skills…mom was so delighted…she could use this as our plus point for match making my sis said…ahhahhahahhaha…hilarious!

Dad as usual did the harder bits, like the pressing and shaping …we women did the frying, cooking, making of dough and packaging…of coz, he could not have completed the day without his chilled beer!! What a treat….we had ice creams instead…

We had a field day…reminded us of our younger days…we would sit in the kitchen and watch mom do all this and we wait for the cake batter so tht we could lick the fresh dough of the spoons and bowl….fruit cakes…she makes the best fruit cakes…ever ever and ever ever!

So am looking forward for more quality times like this…the feeling is priceless!!!

P/S: Happy Anniversary Anna and Matchal

Big Girls should cry?

2005-10-18T12:40:00.000+08:00

Why do we cry? We women cry for the finest of things sometimes (or is it most of the time? laughs)…is it for reasons both biological and social, scientists and sociologists say, women are more inclined than men to feel the urge to cry for delicate or impervious matters!!? Something to think about?

Scientists do not know exactly why women tend to cry more easily, but several factors may be at work. One is the hormone prolactin, which is present in mammary glands and induces lactation but is also found in the blood and in tear glands. Boys and girls have about equal levels of prolactin levels in their blood during childhood. But from ages of 12 to 18, the levels in girls gradually rise, and that may have something to do with why women cry more than men.

Tear glands in men and women also differ anatomically, and that, too, may lead women to cry more easily.

So when a man cries, it leads people to think he's a sweet, sensitive, caring individual…but when a woman cries, she is often seen as "emotionally labile." I hear women being called crybaby all the time, even by other women…the judgment can be unfair because sometimes women cry for good reasons. At least i do...(movies don't count ok!)

It’s unfair that men are always allowed to be more direct like for example pounding tabletops and yelling and throwing something against walls and do various kinds of physical acting out. But sadly we women's mode of expression is supposed to be more passive, more childlike. Maybe if women could act out like men, there would probably be less tears?

Do we women need to be vigilant, to hold it in? Pondering continues....

Kissing Language (yup,its a language)

2005-10-18T08:23:00.000+08:00

if a kiss is the Language of Love, then we have a lot to talk about it....

methods of Love....

+kiss on the ear------"i'm horny"
+kiss on the cheek----"we're friends"
+kiss on the hand-----"i adore you"
+kiss on the neck------"we belong together"

+kiss on the shoulder-----"i want you"
+kiss on the lips------------"i love you" or "i want you"
+holding hands--------"we can learn to love each other"

+a wink-------------------"Let's get it on"
+slap on the butt----"thats mine"
+playing with the ear----"i can't live without you"

+holding on tight----"don't let go"
+looking into each other's eyes-----"let's get romantic"

+pulling hair on head----"tell me you love me"
+arms around the waist---"i love you too much to let go"

=advice=
if you're kissing someone, close your eyes. it's not nice to stare...

Micasa!!

2005-10-17T15:20:00.000+08:00

Weekend was impeccable as usual! We went drinking on Friday night a this club called ‘cockpit’ (was my first time there…been yonks since I stepped foot in Bangsar!!!!!)…Hmmm….u should see the waitresses…tube’s as skirts? (now guys…stop drooling!!) Believe me gals, it was not sexy at all rather a lil disgusting! I definitely can’t picture myself in there again!

The club was filled with young kids…yes I mean immature, juvenile, adolescent kids…what the hell are they all doing in clubs? (it used to be great when I painted bangsar red!) ahems…..i sound ancient huh!! But hey…whteva happened to all the nice descent men & women…have they all turned into fossils? It was disheartening to see how everything in Bangsar has changed…for the worse? I used to know what to do!!!!!!!

Anyways, lazed around the house the whole of Saturday (although I had lunch and dinner with me sis Aumi) and went to see my parents on Sunday…mom cooked pork luncheon and it was super! And we had our ‘family moment’….and at the end of the day…I thank god for such a loving and caring family…a family who understands me and a family who’ve been nothing but supportive….always always!

So cheers to Pupsy, Momsy, Aumi, Amama and….Moma in Sarawak…inside some cave!

P/S: Happy Birthday Din Dash...

Women And Their Zodiac Characteristics

2005-10-14T10:53:00.000+08:00

By Pankaj Khanna

LEO - WOMEN

If your date of birth falls between 23rd July and 22nd August, then you are a Leo woman.

Physical Appearance

You possess an imposing persona and have a royal air around you. Well developed bones, broad shoulders, tall, well-built and muscular body characterise a Leo woman. Your stature is full and you look majestic and dignified.

Mental Attitude

You are ambitious and commanding. You will like to be in positions where people look towards you for guidance and direction. A Leo woman has sufficient mental and emotional strength to don the mantle of a leader.You tend to perform better in a stressful situation more than in daily routine. A Leo woman is mentally very agile and has a very good grasp of the things. However she also has the tendency to while most of her time in pursuing activities of leisure and recreation. One of the negative things about you is your inability to work steadily for a long period of time.

General Nature

Women born in Leo sign normally have a a royal nature. Activities like taking side of the weak, giving donations etc. come naturally to you. With a good capacity to organize & manage , you can manage organisations very effectively. You are very sure of yourself and are able to mingle with all people, high and low alike. Refined tastes are generally found in your type and you are keenly interested in dance, music and poetry. On the flip side - you are a quite a slave of flattery and people can misuse this weakness of yours to get the resulta that they desire from you. Sometimes you also become difficult to get along with. You want every thing to go your way and you fail to see that other human beings also exist and they too can have a desire or say in any subject.

Health

Your health problems are related to heart, the spinal column and bones. You should take care by way of proper food and regular exercise. You should take very long walks and do a lot of physical work to ward off the stress from your body. Your health problems also stem from a view that everything should run according to your wish and when it fails to happen you get irritable and majorly stressed.

Money

You tend to gradually more over to areas that provide high income and social respect . Money wise, you should be quite well-off. A leo woman has generous nature and gives away money to any one who is able to get her sympathy. Showing off is also a negative trait which leads you to overspend and waste your money.

Romance And Sex Life

You are fiery and passionate. You will attract men but will not allow them to come very close to you - because you feel your royal status can be compromised by that. You know well how to handle men and even the worst of them will behave properly in your audience. Centre of your back is your hotspot.

Marriage

You are very true and faithful to your husband and will try to improve your house by all possible means. If your husband can understand you well and have faith in you, your married life will be very good. You will go out of your way to do the extra bit to improve the house and care for your husband. You will not mind the extra effort or the pain you may have to incur. But if your husband is not understanding and supportive , the marriage will definitely face rough weather and you may move out of it.

Ideal Match

Your best match will with natives born in Aries or Sagittarious sign. h, Virgo and Gemini can also keep you happy though.

Caution

It is rightly said that 'flattery is a food of fools'. You should not be carried away with it. One thing you should remember that one who flatters you has some aim in mind for which he or she wants to use you. You should instead be open to creative criticism.

Lucky Days, Numbers And Colours

Sunday and Tuesday are lucky days for you. 1, 4, 5, 9, 6 are lucky numbers for you. Red, Orange, and green are your lucky colours.

Recommended Gemstones

Ruby and Emerald are your Gemstones. The Gems should be of vibrant Aura and should not have been worn before. The weight can be decided as per your body weight and age.

Book Programme and pissing in my pants!

2005-10-13T18:46:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wondered why we go for trainings? Especially for something we were not completely interested in the fisrt place? Having to do more work (added responsibilities most definitely) and for something u might not even be credited for? (at least not the way u would like it to be)

Well I got dragged in because I did not get a chance to go to Australia to do the book project…in my previous diary I said tht I would consider this and take this as an opportunity to grow in the company….let myself shine…only to impress my mom and dad? Hahhahaha…silly how weird things work around here…(they said we were amongst the cream of the crop) nice to hear no?

I had to spend the whole day in training (will have another session tomorrow) learning how to produce a whole book…including pre, pro and post production? Gosh, the amount of work tht I will be anticipating…it’s an enormous and vicious cycle! The passes, the stages, the checks, the composing, the printing, the synchronizing, the exporting, the all….haiyoooo…(I just nearly pissed in my pants thinking about it all…)

So am hoping tht I will be fine, although I was telling Nadia how scary it all is and how I m definitely going to be a mess in the next 2 months to come…looking forward? Maybe a lil place in my heart is thumping for joy; the evil side of me is saying…what the hell have u got urself into gal? Well I am not gonna let the unpropitious side get the best of me…and so I am gonna make my mommy and pupsy impressed of the things their lil gal can do…

Hail Australian Master Tax Examples….here comes the best u’ve ever seen……winks!!!

How sexy is Your Name??

2005-10-12T17:16:00.000+08:00

According to studies, the first letter of your first name reveals your sexual identity

-A-

You are not particularly romantic, but you are interested in action. You mean business. With you, what you see is what you get. You have no patience for flirting and can't be bothered with someone who is trying to be coy, cute, demure, and subtly enticing. You are an up front person. When it comes to sex, it's action that counts not obscure hints. Your mate's physical attractiveness is important to you. You find the chase and challenge of the "hunt" invigorating. You are passionate and sexual as well as being much more adventurous than you appear; however, you do not go around advertising these qualities. Your physical needs are your primary concern.

-B-

You give off vibes of lazy sensuality. You enjoy being romanced, wined, and dined. You are very happy to receive gifts as an expression of the affection of your lover. You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You are private in your expression of endearments and particularly when it comes to lovemaking. You will hold off until everything meets with your approval. You can control your appetite and abstain from sex if need be. You require new sensations and experiences. You are willing to experiment.

-C-

You are a very social individual, and it is important to you to have a relationship. You require closeness and togetherness. You must be able to talk to your sex partner before, during, and after. You want the object of your affection to be socially acceptable and good looking. You see your lover as a friend and companion. You are very sexual and sensual, needing someone to appreciate and almost worship you. When this cannot be achieved, you have the ability to go for long periods without sexual activity. You are an expert at controlling your desires and doing without.

-D-

Once you get it into your head that you want someone, you move full steam ahead in pursuit. You do not give up your quest easily. You are nurturing and caring. If someone has a problem, this turns you on. You are highly sexual, passionate, loyal, and intense in your involvement,sometimes possessive and jealous. Sex to you is a pleasure
to be enjoyed. You are stimulated by the eccentric and unusual, having a free and open.

-E-

Your greatest need is to talk. If your date is not a good listener, you have trouble relating. A person must be intellectually stimulating or you are not interested sexually. You need a friend for a lover and a companion for a bedmate. You hate disharmony and disruption, but you do enjoy a good argument once in a while it seems to stir things up. You flirt a lot, for the challenge is more important than the sexual act for you, but once you give your heart away, you are uncompromisingly loyal. When you don't have a good lover to fall asleep with, you will fall asleep with a good book. (Sometimes, in fact, you prefer a good book.)

-F-

You are idealistic and romantic, putting your lover on a pedestal. You look for the very best mate you can find. You are a flirt, yet once committed, you are very loyal. You are sensuous, sexual, and privately passionate. Publicly, you can be showy, extravagant, and gallant. You are born romantic. Dramatic love scenes are your favorite fantasy pastime. You can be a very generous lover.

-G-

You are fastidious, seeking perfection within yourself and your lover. You respond to a lover who is your intellectual equal or superior, and one who can enhance your status. You are sensuous and know how to reach the peak of erotic stimulation, because you work at it meticulously. You can be extremely active sexually that is, when you find the time. Your duties and responsibilities take precedence over everything else. You may have difficulty getting emotionally close to a lover, but no trouble getting close sexually.

-H-

You seek a mate who can enhance your reputation and earning ability. You will be very generous to your lover once you have attained a commitment. Your gifts are actually an investment in your partner. Before the commitment, though, you tend to be frugal in your spending and dating habits and equally cautious in your sexual involvement. You are a sensual and patient lover.

-I-

You have a great need to be loved, appreciated... Even worshipped. You enjoy luxury, sensuality, and pleasures of the flesh. You look for lovers who know what they are doing. You are not interested in an amateur, unless that amateur wants a tutor. You are fussy and exacting about having your desires satisfied. You are willing to experiment and try new modes of sexual expression. You bore easily and thus require sexual adventure and change. You are more sensual than sexual, but you are sometimes downright lustful.

-J-

You are totally ing marvelous!

-K-

You can be very romantic, attached to the glamour of love. Having a partner is of paramount importance to you. You are free in your expression of love and are willing to take chances, try new sexual experiences and partners, provided it's all in good taste. Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is intellectually stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated.

-L-

You are very romantic, idealistic, and somehow you believe that to love means to suffer. You wind up serving your mate or attracting people who have unusual troubles. You see yourself as your lover's savior. You are sincere, passionate, lustful, and dreamy. You can't help falling in love. You really enjoy stimulating yourself, though you are fairly new to it. You fantasize and get turned on by movies and magazines. You do not tell others of this secret life, nor of your sexual fantasies.

-M-

You are emotional and intense. When involved in a relationship, you throw your entire being into it. Nothing stops you; there are no holds barred. You are all consuming and crave someone who is equally passionate and intense. You believe in total sexual freedom. You are willing to try anything and everything. Your supply of sexual energy is inexhaustible. You also enjoy mothering your mate.

-N-

You are crap in bed. Much practice and learning is needed.

-O-

You are very interested in sexual activities yet secretive and shy about your desires. You can re-channel much of your sexual energy into making money and/or seeking power. You can easily have extended periods of celibacy. You are a passionate, compassionate, sexual lover, requiring the same qualities from your mate. Sex is serious business; thus you demand intensity and diversity, and are willing to try anything or anyone. Sometimes your passions turn to possessiveness, which must be kept in check.

-P-

You are very conscious of social proprieties. You wouldn't think of doing anything that might harm your image or reputation. Appearances count, therefore, you require a good-looking partner. You also require an intelligent partner. Oddly enough, you may view your partner as your enemy; A good fight stimulates those sex vibes. You are relatively free of sexual hang-ups. You are willing to experiment and try new ways of doing things. You are very social and sensual; you enjoy flirting and need a good deal of physical gratification.

-Q-

You require constant activity and stimulation. You have tremendous physical energy. It is not easy for a partner to keep up with you, sexually or otherwise. You are an enthusiastic lover and tend to be attracted to people of other ethnic groups. You need romance, hearts and flowers, and lots of conversation to turn you on and keep you going.

-R-

You are a no-nonsense, action-oriented individual. You need someone who can keep pace with you and who is your intellectual equal the smarter the better. You are turned on more quickly by a great mind than by a great body. However, physical attractiveness is very important to you. You have to be proud of your partner. You are privately very sexy, but you do not brag, you are willing to serve as teacher. Sex is important; you can be a very demanding playmate.

-S-

You are secretive, self-contained, and shy. You are very sexy, sensual, and passionate, but you do not let on to this. Only in intimate privacy will this part of your nature reveal itself. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role or any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the patience to wait for the right person to come along.

-T-

You are very sensitive, private, and sexually passive; you like a partner who takes the lead. Music, soft lights and romantic thoughts turn you on. You fantasize, but do not tend to fall in and out of love easily. When in love, you are romantic, idealistic, mushy, and extremely intense. You enjoy having your senses and your feelings stimulated, titillated, and teased. You are a great flirt. You can make your relationships fit your dreams, oftentimes all in your own head.

-U-

You are enthusiastic and idealistic when in love. When not in love, you are in love with love, always looking for someone to adore. You see romance as a challenge. You are a roamer and need adventure, excitement, and freedom. You deal in potential relationships. You enjoy giving gifts and enjoy seeing your mate looking good. Your sex drive is strong and you desire instant ratification. You are willing to put your partner's pleasures above your own.

-V-

You are individualistic, and you need freedom, space, and excitement. You wait until you know someone well before committing yourself. Knowing someone means psyching him out. You feel a need to get into his head to see what makes him tick. You are attracted to eccentric types. Often there is an age difference between you and your lover. You respond to danger, thrills, and suspense. The gay scene turns you on, even though you yourself may not be a participant.

-W-

You are very proud, determined, and you refuse to take no for an answer when pursuing love. Your ego is at stake. You are romantic, idealistic, and often in love with love itself, not seeing your partner as he or she really is. You feel deeply and throw all of yourself into your relationships. Nothing is too good for your lover. You enjoy playing love games.

-X-

You need constant stimulation because you bore quickly. You can handle more than one relationship at a time with ease. You can't shut off your mind. You talk while you make love. You can have the greatest love affairs, all by yourself, in your own head.

-Y-

You are sexual, sensual, and very independent. If you can't have it your way, you will forgo the whole thing. You want to control your relationships, which doesn't always work out too well. You respond to physical stimulation, enjoy necking and spending hours just touching, feeling and exploring. However, if you can spend your time making money, you will give up the pleasures of the flesh for the moment. You need to prove to yourself and your partner what a great lover you are. You want feedback on your performance. You are an open, stimulating, romantic bedmate.

-Z-

For you, it is business before pleasure. If you are in any way bothered by career, business, or money concerns, you find it very hard to relax and get into the mood. You can be romantically idealistic to a fault and are capable of much sensuality. But you never lose control of your emotions. You are very careful and cautious before you give your heart away and your body, for that matter. Once you make the commitment, though, you stick like glue.

The Personality, Color & Weird Test!

2005-10-12T11:22:00.000+08:00

***Your Personality Is Idealist (NF)***

You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test http://www.blogthings.com/threequestionpersonalitytest/

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***Your Power Color Is Magenta***

At Your Highest: You energize yourself and push others to suceed.
At Your Lowest: You feel frustrated and totally overwhelmed.
In Love: You are suprised by who you attract. You're a love magnet.
How You're Attractive: Open and free spirited, people want to explore the world with you.
Your Eternal Question: "What is my next source of inspiration?"

What's Your Power Color? http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyourpowercolorquiz/

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***You Are 70% Weird***

You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right?But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!

How Weird Are You? http://www.blogthings.com/howweirdareyouquiz/

Flight Plan...hmmm...!

2005-10-11T10:33:00.000+08:00

So...my colleagues (I-Lynn and Wai Lee) and I went to watch Flight Plan after work....brilliant? Well it was ok...at one point I seriously thought tht it was all an illusion (at least in Kyle’s mind played by Jodie Foster) ...u know with her daughter Julia and all...but I guess that’s the twist of the story...they made u believe tht it was all in her imagination...but at the end her persistence and perseverance brought her and her daughter back together.... awwww!!

And then we decided to have Hong Kie food for dinner...and we went to this restaurant called 'Wong Kok' (similar to the Kim Gary Restaurant...only cheaper!!)...Nice...I had the Cheese toast with pork and rice in Sze Huan style and it was yummmieeeeee! It was a new thingy...and I had a papaya milkshake the size enough for an elephant to drink...aahhhahah!!

'Life and spiritualism' was our topic of conversation and it’s amazing how people perceive things differently from you...some have an open mind to absorb and filter ones version of dogma and some are obdurate with theirs! Hmmm…somewhat like what Forest Gump says…Life is like a box of chocolates, u never know what u’ll get! (the more evident version one would like to understand??)

Oh well…we spoke for hours…goes to show how adamant we got ….I guess we just need to compromise at the cross-junction…but do we really???

Shopping for sarees!!

2005-10-10T08:56:00.000+08:00

Phew!! Finally the deeps shopping is done…we went to the all time fav “Klang” to get our deeps sarees and me dad’s kurtas…and gosh….the amount of people…unbelievable… everyone so engrossed looking for their right choice…and the many kinds that were there…haahhaha….my cousin Arul dreaded coming along…he kept on saying….”Whteva happened to the nice looking Indian gals? Where the hell have they all gone too?” it was hilarious…he was so bored…bored to death that he kept dissing everything that came along his way…poor boy…!!!!

It rained before we could collect our saree blouses…just added to Arul’s disappointment…and we were almost drenched wet on the way to the car….hmmmm! it could not have been complete without the rain…sigh!

Anyways, I think my family and I did a pretty good shopping and all of us happy with our new purchased items and the best thing was that dad was happy too! (although he could not come as he had to meet the auditors)..a blessing I must say…otherwise dad will keep asking how much each cost…hahahha….pupsy…we love u!

So can’t wait to do the catwalk on deeps morning……

P/S: Happy Birthday Anna...

How they perceive us women?!!

2005-10-08T09:20:00.000+08:00

SEs vs. PEs

2005-10-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

There has been a constant barrier between the SEs and PEs in the office and today it has taken its toll to great lengths! SEs think they r mighty superior just because they get paid slightly higher than the PEs and so the job description varies with the different SEs…

And today one particular SE has just got into my nerves…I mean, here we are trying to work within the deadline (mind u which is this coming Monday) and this missy is doing her sheriff rounds (meaning going from table to table chit chatting)…when she has work to do…oh common!!

Currently the product is in my workflow state and if she does not complete her bit quickly (Para checking that is!), I can’t proceed with mine…(kicking my chair as of now)…where the hell is your priorities missy??????? This is annoyance in many degrees…I have been ultimately patient for sometime now (those who know me, know this is hard to come by) and my next resort to confronting the problem was to write an email to my team leader, explaining the situation! I just spoke to her and she said she will deal with this missy’s team leader…could I have taken matters into my own hands? Hell yeah…but I have to respect my teammates and other issues that everyone else is handling….

So it’s do or die now…. u better buck up missy…or else…

Colorgenics-MOOD ANALYSIS TEST

2005-10-06T16:25:00.000+08:00

Goodness u've got to try this one out...it varies everytime!! More often than not it's actually true...

http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/

Bulan Ramadhan?

2005-10-06T11:03:00.000+08:00

So..it’s back again with the Bulan Ramadhan and the puasa-ing…I tot I will give it a try and see for how long I could take not eating…ok the not eating bit was alright…the no drinking and no fufu-ing was the hardest…I could not even last 4 hours…haahhaha! So much for my puasa-ing!!

So Nadia and I still visit the 2nd floor for our ‘fufu’ sessions…but the unique bit is that she is puasa-ing, so she just accompanies me…amazing huh! Things friends do for you…first I felt really bad…u know how temptations can be detrimental at times!! But Nadia is one hard ball to crack (the respect given for this month is phenomenal…for some at least!)

Looking forward to all the goodies at the end of the month…ooo…Deepavali is right at the corner too…yippee!! New sarees for all…

Talk with GOD?

2005-10-05T15:00:00.000+08:00

I just thought this was really hilarious.....many of my friends and colleagues have tried it...and its amazing the kind of conversations one can come up with...with GOD!! Check this out then...

http://www.titane.ca/concordia/dfar251/igod/main.html

Sigmalink / NGP-apps

2005-10-04T16:15:00.000+08:00

Goodness gracious me! I haven’t the slightest clue why these 2 servers are in slow mo! I mean come on….expedite the freaking process Aussies!!!

Here we are trying to compose our print product for the whole day…and one job file for an hour?????….arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (although every time this happens I feel like kicking the bloody computer)…why did we have to have the freakin servers in Australia?

R we not good enough to have our own edsupport team over here in Cyberjaya? Good job my foot!

Too Rich: The Secret Life of Doris Duke vs. Money For Nothing

2005-10-03T00:09:00.000+08:00

So the weekend was pleasant…and I had recuperated from the hectic week…somehow I watched these two movies and it was all about $$$….

One movie was about this really rich gal (born rich to Tobacco Tycoon, Buck Duke) and how she dealt with her whole life trying to keep or save guard her money (although she was unhappy her whole freaking life coz all the people whom she fell in love with, well they fell in love with her money….I actually felt sad for this lady)…and the other movie where this unemployed guy finds 1.2 million dollars on the street and how he dealt with his new found fortune (although he never spent his money wisely) before he got caught by the police…5 days later!

Here I kept thinking to myself…a lot of people I know are trying to find the riches of the world so that they could live comfortably, but it came to a point (after watching the movie of coz)…that material wealth is not all that and what is it that really keeps our life enriched?!

My mom used to always say, be careful what u wish for…because most of the time one would not be able to handle it….how is this possible? Everyone wants money, everyone wants to be able to purchase something without having to look at the price tag or having to worry how to pay for it…..everyone wants to be debt free or gosh…that reminds me of my credit card bills…Hahahha!

So when is it enough? How long or what does it take for us to be happy? When does it stop? Something to think about????? I am…

Australia or no Australia?

2005-09-30T16:22:00.000+08:00

Well performance review just finished a couple of days ago and felt acquittal…hmmm…looking forward to going to Australia for a business trip (although we will be working our @#%’s off)…and hopefully come pleasure…( some nice yummy aussies??)

Everything came to a halt when my team leader said that I was not chosen to go do the book project there….am I discouraged, disenchanted? Well maybe a little at first…not until I read this email from one of my colleague..an email worthy' of ‘my attention’ and was totally a reading pleasure…I felt like a million bucks all of a sudden…

I was chosen to do a book project in Cyberjaya instead…a priviledge? Well I’d like to think so….but the working hours is gonna be crazy and pretty much strenuous…but that’s the price am willing to pay…would be an overwhelming opportunity and the experience earned would be tremendous! Who knows…I might be the next team leader heading the New Zealand team? And I must say that I was pretty flabbergasted and it all sank in after a while and now I think I kind of earned it!

Mom told me that things always happen for a reason and that god has wonderful plans for us…is this one of his super duper plans for me? I will probably only know in time…

Me Astro Profile!!

2005-09-29T12:40:00.000+08:00

Element: Fire
Mode: Fixed
Ruler: Sun
Color: Sun Yellow, Gold
Famous Leos: Louis Armstrong, Neil Armstrong, Napoleon Bonaparte, Charles Bukowski, Emily Brontë, Amelia Earhart, Mata Hari, Alfred Hitchcock, Dustin Hoffman, Whitney Houston, Carl Jung, Madonna, Robert Redford, George Bernard Shaw, Martha Stewart, Andy Warhol, Esther Williams
Strengths: Ambitious, courageous, creative, faithful, generous, honorable, humorous, open-minded, organized, powerful, self-aware, resolute
Weaknesses: Arrogant, authoritarian, egocentric, exaggerating, intolerant, jealous -narcissistic, proud, hypersensitive, vain

Leo, the fifth sign of the zodiac, is the sign of generosity and nobility. It stands for self-_expression and the unfolding of the internal power principle. Generous and self-aware, you are truly king of the jungle. The Sun defines the dominant traits of your personality and your basic character. This makes you a self-assured, magnanimous, and buoyant person who enjoys being the center of attention, and others often see you as invincible, because your courage and charisma are so impressive.

You are the second of the fire signs, which makes you a strong-willed and courageous individual, with great leadership qualities. Your aura radiates magnetism and dignity like the rays around the sun.

You rule the fifth house of the horoscope, which is the area associated with pleasure, creativity, and play. Your desire to live out your emotions is powerful, and you constantly seek new ways of self-_expression. The mode of a Leo is fixed, which means that you are passive in your need for admiration, expecting others to naturally notice and approach you. You enjoy stability and comfort, and are generous in sharing it with others.

Virgo Rising, your mental acuteness is expressed in practical matters. You rather observe things, instead of talking about it. You are systematic and well organized in developing ideas and executing them. You also tend to deftly analyze situations until you have crystal clear results in front of you. No detail is too small for you to notice or explain, sivananthi, because perfection is your goal!

Professionally speaking, you excel in any kind of partnerships and associations, sivananthi, because you are an excellent mediator and diplomat, who has an innate sense of justice. This naturally inspires the respect, and the trust of the people you are in contact with. Since you detest conflict, you are always able to find a common ground that satisfies all parties involved, and are likely to work out compromises to save personal relationships.

You are not very communicative, because your inner life is vast, virgin territory for purity and truth that you idealize. You don’t let anyone enter this very carefully guarded “Garden of Eden”, sivananthi, unless you have invited them. You are very ambitious to make the world a better place. You have a lot of respect for the environment and for your fellow humans, and with a spiritual and universal approach, you try to make your best contributions. This is what pushes a Virgo Rising ahead in life.

Your Life-Path number is probably the most influential numerological aspect to be considered, sivananthi, and represents who you are at the time of birth. It indicates specific traits and will likely be active and influential throughout your lifetime. It is the overall number that determines much of what will be important to you and how you will handle things as they come.

If your Life-Path number is SIX, a sense of responsibility will likely be prominent for you. SIXES are considered to be the most domestic of numbers and live a path related to leadership through example. This assumption of responsibility generally means that as a SIX, you’re always there to help others in any way you can. In fact, you must need to feel useful in order to be truly happy.

Those with a SIX Life-Path are usually very versatile and can communicate across any generation gap. SIXES are idealistic and usually recognize that wisdom, understanding, and balance are the cornerstones to assume responsibility in the best possible way.

It is common for SIXES to be devoted to their families and homes. This is usually the first priority for a SIX with helping the community coming a close second. Key words for a SIX Life-Path are responsibility, protection, nurturing, community, balance, empathy, and family.

It can be challenging for some SIXES to take on the responsibility for what’s around them in a healthy balance. Careful planning and consideration for the self as well as others will alleviate feelings of overwhelm or guilt. Be careful not to be too critical or hard on yourself if you can’t do it all. Your path is one of assuming only what you are able.

Like the Snake that enchanted Eve, you know how to make more than one person lose their head! Refined, funny, and gifted in seduction, you shine in society with your intelligence and vivacious spirit. The snake is admired in China for his wisdom and you have a philosophy in life that is all your own.

Intuitive and lucid in all situations, you become reserved when conversing and are silent most of the time, preferring to let your thoughts make their way in silence rather than through chatter. However, if the subject is abstract, you don't hesitate expressing yourself while your audience looks up to you in admiration, seduced by your knowledge. A cold-blooded animal, you love intrigue and playfulness in life, but preserve large periods of time for idleness.

You have the capacity to realize your projects in a few hours while others would take days to complete them. When you start out, your efficiency is terrifying and all the more so as you often work alone and at your own rhythm. You are faster than the average person, as you slide over obstacles like a snake in the grass. With your venom, you willingly attack your enemies with acerbic comments, leaving them only when your thirst for revenge has been satisfied. It's better being your friend...

ANST 88!

2005-09-28T10:37:00.000+08:00

Phew! Finally ANST # 88 (New South Wales Strata and Community Law) is out for final mock filing…and it’s on my team leader’s table…waiting to get into the grind….hmmm….fingers crossed no errors…(nail biting???)

Sadly our team has done 5 mistakes since September 2005 started and this does not look good on our team…from error free in the month of August 2005….all of us have been drilled over and over again on how to do proper checks on our work and have zero errors before we send them to MPG for printing…(somehow or rather…we are only humans and I think Lata knows this…) oh btw, Lata is my team leader and she has been excellent all through out…everyday we sail through the learning curb…and my goodness she’s a awe-inspiring person inside out…groovy, incredible, vibrant and oh so dear to me! A congenial friend…and extremely respectable at work….

I think we work well in the team…all 12 of us and we’ve proven ourselves one too many times and I think we will do great in the near future…so..congrats lata for the great leadership! Here’s to you…"Do not change who you are for anyone. If God, in all his wisdom, made you the way you are, he did it for a reason."

Am so looking forward to the weekend…it has definitely been stressful with ANST #88 and hopefully it clears tomorrow facilely…

Every Woman

2005-09-27T14:41:00.000+08:00

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...

...one old love she can imagine
going back to...and one who reminds
her how far she has come...

...enough money within her
control to move out and rent a place
of her own even if she never wants
to and needs to...

...something perfect to wear if
the employer or date of her dreams
wants to see her in an hour...

...a youth she's content to
leave behind...

...a past juicy enough that
she's looking forward to retelling it
in her old age...

...the realization that she is
actually going to have an old age
and some money set aside to fund it...

...a set of screwdrivers, a
cordless drill, and a black lace
bra...

...one friend who always makes
her laugh... and one who lets her
cry...

...a good piece of furniture
not previously owned by anyone else
in her family...

...eight matching plates, wine
glasses with stems, and a recipe
for a meal that will make her
guests feel honored...

...a resume that is not even
slightest bit padded...

...a feeling of control over
her destiny...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

...how to fall in love without
losing herself...

...how to quit a job, break up
with a lover, and confront a friend
without ruining the friendship...

...when to try harder... and
when to walk away...

...how to have a good time at a
party she'd never choose to attend...

...how to ask for what she
wants in a way that makes it most
likely she'll get it...

...that she can't change the
length of her calves, the width of
her hips, or the nature of her
parents...

...that her childhood may not
have been perfect... but its
over...

...what she would and wouldn't
do for love or more...

...how to live alone... even if
she doesn't like it...

...whom she can trust, whom she
can't, and why she shouldn't take
it personally..

...where to go... be it to her
best friend's kitchen table... or a
charming inn in the woods...
when her soul needs soothing...

...what she can and can't
accomplish in a day... a month... and
a year...

The Bumbu Bali – appetizing, heavenly, yummy, mouthwatering, palatable…

2005-09-27T13:45:00.000+08:00

We found this new place to eat in Puchong….we’ve had birthday celebrations…farewell parties….I take special guests here….the food is absolutely awesome! And the ambience is overwhelming and everyone has loved the place….no complaints..(not yet at least!)

The owner is a charming yet pleasant guy, and he has done wonders to this restaurant and we just love it! From fun loving to sad and tiresome times….I have pretty much exercised all my emotions in this place…and the best bit is that it’s 10 minutes away from where I live and…who says Puchong was a gangster’s paradise? (maybe once upon a time!!)

Rejuvenating, uplifting and invigorating weekend!

2005-09-26T11:27:00.000+08:00

Ahhh…beers finally over the weekend…after a rough week at work….it would have been meaningless otherwise…! So what do u say if u got a dose of your best friend (who came down from penang…and have not seen him since May), power sleep and family over 1 weekend? (hmmm…. Divine? Eminent? Excellent? Splendiferous? Sumptuous? Superb? Magnificent? Marvellous?) Wow…there are just so many instances to describe how am feeling now…the best is yet to come…!

Well Friday night it was to Waikiki’s…totally brilliant!…we had some beers Prem and I…..and it was awesome!…we just updated each other of the latest happenings in our lives and it was just all good..i missed him so much and all I needed was him to come back and hear me vent, unleash, assert, declare and pour out my hearts content….and he appreciated the fact that I missed him and told him almost everything that went on in the past 4 months without him….

I got him to drive my new Waja to Waikiki and back (he is the only one who has driven my car till now besides my dad of coz!) and it felt great being driven around…after soooooo long!

Being at parents place on Sunday was the icing of the cake! I was just talking to my sis the other day in the car and we just agreed that going to see my parents just makes us feel so damn good! No massage or aromatherapy can beat this feeling!…We feel so damn swanky ….I hate leaving at the end of the day…..but then again…we all have to go back to our routine and make the best of everything…..mom, dad…I love u!

Cloudburst!

2005-09-23T14:21:00.000+08:00

Well well well..it's frigid in the office...hmmm...horrible downpour outside...absolutely no mood to carry on doing work as it's the weekend and every living being in the office is crying out for beers!

The best bit is that my best friend Prem is down from penang...and yeah it's definitely gonna be intoxication tonight.... hallelujah!!! To hell with the rain and nothing is gonna stop us today….

Have I mentioned about Prem (gorgeous as hell!)? Well he is one sweet, nice, brilliant, sweet, kind, loving, unpresumptuous, well-mannered, meticulous, charming and classy guy …the best I’ve known…and oh ya did I mention about his paintings? Wow…they’re brilliant and this is one of the reasons we became really really acquainted!

He paints like the flowing river and I love him…meant to say love it! Hahahha….known him for yonks now….and the funny thing is that I am still learning about him….its amazing this guy…he’s not the average person u bump into all of a sudden…it’s a privilege knowing u sunshine…and I hope u get to decorate for my wedding ( that is if and when I get married…winks!!) an honour knowing this man!

P/s: Did i just go way off the topic??

Alina and Howard!

2005-09-23T10:05:00.000+08:00

Oh wow….this is one gal I have so much to say about….she’s been a brilliant friend and colleague (and she means the world to me)…we automatically just clicked…thanks to our ‘fufu’ sessions….this is one amazing tiny gal…(although always complaining about her ass being too big…I beg to differ)! Oh by the way…have I mentioned that she’s gorgeous??

I cherish the times we were together and we used to frequent “Waikiki Bar” almost every Friday since we met on 4th April 2005…well now she’s married to Howard (one of the nicest guy I have met…stay precious darling!) And she relocated to England (Leeds to be exact) on the 11th of August 2005 to join her new husband…one day after my birthday and life has been rather quiet these days….although Nadia and I have been doing some crazy activities together…ahhahahaha!

Alina is one person everyone should have as a friend coz she’s a beautiful person and she just knows how to say the nicest things at the right time…more like she always knows the right timing…! I miss her so much now but of coz thank god for emails and sms’s….we still do keep in touch…but it’s just not the same as having her around….physically!! We always talk about life and the consequences that take place based on the actions we do and somehow we think so much alike…

And the best bit is that we somehow come to the same conclusion to nearly everything….we’ve known each other for a short while now…but it seems like we’ve known each other for a million years (Hey mama!!)…now she’s adjusting and getting comfortable having to live with another person coz she’s been so independent all this while…she always tells me it’s not fun having to share things with someone else…hahhahah! (Oh Howard…behave!!)…Here is to more good times….this is for you Alina….!!

A Friend like you....Alina...

I was amazed on the day,

You became a part of my world.

It was like I opened an oyster,

I found the brightest pearl.

A friend that shared,

a bit of their life with me.

A friend that sees so many things,

Exactly the way I see.

A friend that gives me guidance,

In this crazy mixed up life of mine.

A friend that's still my friend,

Even though I ask silly questions, sometime.

A friend that doesn't expect me to give,

Though all you have to do is ask.

A friend looking past my flaws.

A friend not wearing a decorative mask.

And when my journey on this earth is through.

I can look back in my life knowing,

I have a friend in you.

P/S: Thanks for being there....

Horizontally Challenged!!

2005-09-22T10:18:00.000+08:00

All my life I have been constantly put in a position or rather in the ‘I think u need to loose some weight category’ that it’s just gone bonkus…my soul and I (it’s done some serious thinking)….it’s just got to a point that I used to have arguments (constructive ones) with loved ones…although I think people should accept a person for who they are and not what they were made of! It’s the inside that is precious and beauty comes from within…“Beauty lies in the eye of the beholder”…well how true is that in the kind of world that we are living in today?

People quickly judge someone by their appearance and immediately put a cock to the bottle and say their not the interesting kind….not the kind that would be able to have incredible conversations with….hmmm….now…how much of this is really true…I would like to believe that there is something about everyone that is interesting and if only we gave equal opportunity to everyone to voice out ones opinion (although it might seem frivolous sometimes!)

Hmmm….the weight issue has always been bugging me and finally I found a jogging partner….Nadia, my colleague (and ‘fufu’ buddy) have decided to put our strength to the test…we have been jogging since Monday, everyday except for yesterday as it was pouring cats and dogs….due to the ground being all soggy and wet!! The park opposite our apartment was the winning venue and it has been great since…

We are taking some dietary pills to keep us healthy and hope to see some good results real soon….at least by Deepavali! We’ve been motivating each other since the beginning of time and finally got around to doing something about it….it sure is a huge commitment and only we know how it should work best! “No Pain, No Gain” they say….i guess there’s some essence of truth in that….go figure!

So we will have to see where this perseverance takes us and u know what….exercising with a friend is so much more fun then when doing it all alone…we keep motivating and supporting each other….it’s actually brilliant! We keep tab of our performances (although we have tried many methods of cheating) but we are getting into that ‘ I want to loose some weight and look nice’ mode and hope this will last till we reach our goals…and then instead of being judged…maybe we can instead?

Hell….if Oprah (My all time favourite person) can do it….why not us? She’s got abs to die for and yes….we want that too!… Oh yes we do…..!

Such is my life!

2005-09-21T13:46:00.000+08:00

Its funny how sometimes we always want to do the right things and hope to reap some if not all the benefits…but somehow fail to realize that all actions has an equal and opposite reaction! My girlfriends and I have always been talking about this during our ‘fufu’ sessions and we have all come to a similar conclusion…. good things happen to good people and things always happen for a reason….hmmm! (now…were we putting our thinking caps on or is it just plain simple?)

And the more we realize this…the more we know we don’t know so much! (did not have to get a gal genius to figure out that one though!)…so we have to except the pitiful instances of life and get ourselves together and just do the best we can with life! Some say it’s wonderful, some beg to differ…and where do I stand in all this? Well I have learnt in the recent years from family and friends that there is this thing called ‘karma’ and whatever we do…we do it to the best of our ability…and any complaints? Oh sure…life is so much of a roller coaster that sometimes one wonders…could it get any worse? Oh my goodness….u wouldn’t believe the predicament!

I have always believed in the high and mighty and my mom always used to tell me…put in the 60% and the other 40% will come on its own….and so that is what I have been doing all this time…although some might say where’s the 100%? But u know what, it’s been working wonders…I must say that I have a beautiful and wonderful family….their support is mountain high and mean the world to me….and my friends who have been so great (that I thank god everyday for all these blessings)…..come to think of it…all the other things in life which I thought I really wanted and needed did not seem so important now as I have grown mature…all the bumps on the road that we travel on…is just a passing phase and there’s so much to look forward to?….to know that the little things in life…mean much more….much much more…!

All time fav!!

2005-09-20T11:25:00.000+08:00

Footprints in the Sand
Author: Mary Stevenson

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand;
One belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
He looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life,
there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
And saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times
in my life there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why, when I needed you most,
you would leave me."

The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only oneset of footprints in the sand,
it was then that I carried you."

P/s: And everytime i read this, it's lifts me!